i will survive

oh.actually i realised this is a better picture.

i mean, to show how much i want my long beautiful

flowing hair back.and while only time will bring that back to me,

i guess i'm stuck with my not-here-not-there hair, which by the way,

totally sucks.okay!enough said about hair.

did i mention that right now, Z and i are totally over?

like one long winded Hindustani drama lah.tak boleh angs!

yeah.over.full stop.

ahhahh!

for now, stick to it and soon you'll see.

wait wait wait!

and i just realised that we only fast for 29 days instead of the usual 30 this year!

:)

okay lah.

goodnight my lovely freaks!

sex APPEAL

darn!
somebody please help me with my parking offence appeal.

anyway,
today was a good start.
i feel alive again.
and life begins at night for moi.
with blood pumping through my veins.
the moment when all i could think of
is that shiny gold trophy at the end of
the finishing line.

oh yah!can't wait for our dinner date at
Park View Holiday Inn Hotel:)
mark it down on your calenders.
can't wait! can't wait! can't wait!
let's eat well and enjoy every moment.

F came back from SF the other day and
got me gifts straight from the heart of
Golden Gate Park! not liteally lah.
Lots and lots and lots and lots and lots
of heavenly GHIRADELLI chocs and
the cheekiest extra low rise thongs and
hipsters from VS plus a pear glace exhilarating
body wash and more stuff frm F21 too.
Woohoo!I'm glad you enjoyed you holiday
deary.you one lucky *toot*.
i love you.you know i do:)

as of now, i simply can't wait for raya!!!
i mean, i just can't wait for that celebration
spirit and mood and atmosphere and all.you know?
plus this year, i could finally drive our family during
our visitings.i know they've been waiting for this
for very long i must say.FINALLY.

oh.
i can't help but to notice how much my parents
have aged, my dad, in particular.there are times
when i'm sitting at home late at night, watching
tv and dad reaches home and opens the door, tired,
but still puts a smile on his face when he sees us.
it breaks my heart.
i love you daddy.

goodnight friends.

i need FOOD!

been feeling weak lately.
i think i need food.

i can finally pronounce the letter S
properly now!woohoo!
i swear i was so scared my speech
would be permanently affected man.

actually waiting for us to finally break
our day long fast.

faster!faster!faster!
I'M HUNGRY!

a wiser me

i had my freaking wisdom tooth extracted yesterday!
and i drove from home all the way to toa payoh
where the dental clinic is man! and the best part
was that i, nurraini bte salim, drove back to tampines
all the way from toa payoh after my freaking tooth
was extracted!isn't it amazing?

yes it is:) getting better~

half my mouth felt numb due to the anaesthetic
for about three whole hours after its was being
injected into my gum. and OH MY GOD! it was
a horrible horrible experience.i better not share.

i couldn't really talk properly right after.
especially when it comes to the pronunciation
of words with the letter S.that is sad.
and oh yah! i couldn't really eat too.
but that was yesterday!
i can finally eat real food today.YAY!
i am still dealing with practicing pronouncing
words with the letter S as it still sounds off lah.
afterall, i'm 19 and bogeh.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA!

and i swear i can still taste something that
i'm sure doesn't naturally come from my
own mouth.it must be the stuff the doc put
into my gums or smth. yucks!

i've got 2 days of MC for getting my wisdom tooth extracted.
plus i got to bring home my GIGI!

OKAY BYE!

come back to me HAIR.

hoochie coochie!

finally got myself a travel sized hand sanitizer!
i always feel dirty after work every saturday.
hate the dirty keyboard!
disgusting.

right now, i'm just mentally preparing myself
for whatever that's about to happen in the near
future.gonna keep telling myself this...
i've done it before, and i'll do it again.
DEFINITELY!

i'd have to prepare a short presentation on
my final year project research work sometime
soon.but the thing is, there's only so much that
we know about what the hell that we're doing.
ACHARIA HELP!!!

i've been doing a little research about a certain
little thing awhile ago...and although i'm not really
good at googling, i managed to get a rough idea of
what i'm getting tomorrow at the grocery store.
yeah....we're going grocery shopping people!
so exciting.

F's back from Golden Gate Park:)
woohoo!goodies, goodies and more goodies!
i love you deary.

people may think that i'm good at making
small talks with just about anybody...yes it is true,
but you see, only to a certain extend.
hmm...small, meaningless talks.
oh! which reminds me of yesterday's incident.

haliey brought me for dinner with her bf and
a friend of her bf. so, y'knw in this kind of
situations, normally you can expect
moments of awkwardness between us...
and i just refused to go down the awkward
path so i started babbling random things.
lucky for me, the atmosphere lightened and
things went pretty well i guess....
so that night, or should i say morning,
when i was all washed up and ready for bed,
i received a call from H saying tt the bf's friend
wanted me to hang out with them.full stop.
i'd rather get my beauty sleep:P
plus,
whatssup with the coloured contact lenses dude?

bumped into an old friend of mine earlier.
and she said, 'i met your ex boyfriend, Mus, the other day'
the funny thing was that she kept talking about how
good his teeth looked!HAHA!hilarious.
and i was like, righttt~ that colourblind ex boyfriend.

tabla and I were talking about Brazilian earlier
and suddenly D popped up in my screen saying
that she's going for a Brazilian tomorrow!
what a coincidence right? she's psychic!
all the very best to you D.
it's worth it baby:)

i want hair extensions!!!
missing the long long long hair i used to have.
BADLY.

i miss ct too.

goodnight freaks!

my heart sank to the pit of my stomach!

just as i had this thought of posting about the
fact that Zachary and I are officially through...
something happened.
but somehow, i'm happy it did.

cos it breaks my heart whenever i think about
us not being friends at all. yeah i mean, it may
seem pretty childish, the whole i-dun-friend-you
issue Zachary and I had, but it did happen....
and when it was all happening, i thought i had
enough...i thought i could just forget about it and
just let it go...

but today, i bumped into him.
oh and the funny thing was the moment i saw his nose
i knew it was him. and when i saw him, at that moment,
everything just came back to me like it was just yesterday.

we talked.

and i miss him.i really do.

i can't blame him for 'hating' me so much ofter all that.
but I'm just hoping that things were like it used to...
i'm sorry.

i can't help it.
i miss you. i do. :(

you little baby!

happy 25th birthday DQ!
dude! you're kinda old!
but fortunately you look as cute as a baby still:)

it was one hell of a day at TLL today.
i have to say that this is gonna take a lot from me.
lots.time, energy and everything.
but it's okay.
i'll get through this.

i'm not a direct person.
i am very indirect.
but that's how i am.

ok.i had this weird freaky dream yesterday when
i was having my post breakfast nap.
it was freaky i tell you.
it kinda made me feel like creating one huge gap in-bet-ween
you and me.but it would be kinda mean cos clearly it's just a dream.
BUT i'm still very freaked out.VERY.

anyway,green tea is a diuretic.
duane said that soon i'd have to connect a tube that starts from me,
of course to our lab's nearest toilet.LOL!
funny funny guy:)

i wanna go to bed now,
goodnight world.

just as i think i know...

one more time

So for those of you out there enjoying your
National Day holiday like moi, you have just
a few hours more to soak up and enjoy the
holiday. Cos tomorrow onwards, hell begins.

We were supposed to go back to TLL today
as Mondays are dissection days and normally
hectic days...But we, Charlene and I, decided to
just heck it and enjoy a day of well deserved
break.

Anyway,
I AM GETTING BETTER AT DRIVING!!!
I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONESS!!!PLUS, I'M ALREADY
GETTING THE HANG OF REVERSE PARKINGGGG!!!
WOOHOO!!!

Oh...Bumped into Imran and family at the Metro
Expo Sale. A very shocking surprise i must say.
Awkward too. And his baby brother is sooooo
adorable!

Okay.That's it!
Goodnight world.

i see it now

I was lost yesterday.

All I could see was darkness.

I freaked out.

But today,

I saw a light.

Finally, a direction.