2009

Family.Hair.Men.

Christmas Eve Outing:)

the gist of it.

Happy holidays!

Merry Christmas my darling freaks not geeks!

Enjoy;P

I lup euu horrr

Happy friggin' 19th:)

again and again

It happened again.
Mom and I.

I think we need help.

Je veux ton amour

I'm the one thinking too much.
But not to worry...I'm still sane
and I know very well the boundary.
Keep reminding myself of what this
actually is...like we agreed.........

Just that, and that and that.
Nothing more.

guilt.

My apologies.
I'm really sorry.
To be doing this and enjoying it.

I'm sorry.

quote unquote

It's no surprise.
He's got money.
Men love pussy.
Pussy love money.
And that's what makes the world go round.

-and that's the truth-

Feeling the heat!

As of now, I can tell you that I'm already
feeling the pressure of the last semester.
It's coming into week 8 and there's just
tonnes of deadlines to be taken not e of.
I'm not complaining or anything like that,
I'm just taking a minute off doing all things
school related to blog about it and how I feel.
Yah, I mean...I guess it's a phase everybody
will have to go through and right now,
it is my turn...

all warm and fuzzy inside

there's a lot happening right now...
I'm just gonna mention a few.

i do love my weekly dose of nicotine
and heart to heart conversations:)

my weekends are now only for completing
freaking school assignments and it sucks.

i am a selfish, cold-hearted bitch!

just as I'm getting really tired with everything
to do with school, the unexpected happened.
and i think that it's just what i needed to
keep me going.I'm really happy.

one week starve.the next week binge.
not good.

discover my inner lesbian? yes/no

i read the horoscopes a couple of days back
and right after i went, 'Hmm...Yah horrr~'.
But then again, of all things horoscopes?

too much self-disclosure...
unnecessary.

i love my girlfriends.
we eat a lotttttttttttttttt!

that's all for now darling freaksnotgeeks.
i love you and you and you and you!

oh oh one more...
liberal/conservative?
DON IS HOTTT!
AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.

this is the end.it really is.

You know what.
I don't need this.
You're just wasting my fucking time.
I don't want to have anything to do with you at all.
From now on I do not know you.
I mean it.
And SCREW YOU!

revenge for natasha

Oui.

Happy 21st!

SO ANGRY

I've put in so much effort in trying to prepare for a decent celebration for you guys and you just dilly dally your freaking way home and by the time you get home everyone else are already asleep! and now all you say is...'alah besok je lah!?'.you shouldn't have went for supper with those people.i specifically said that I've got a little surprise for you and you took it lightly? FYI, i was so excited for it okay!i freaking rushed home just for that.for once i thought i could finally please you.both of you.

I'm disappointed.

stop the yo-yo!

01-11-09
breathe and dive back in.

with love

29-10-1988

is the day mom and dad got married.

Happy 21st Wedding Anniversary Mama and Papa!

ticktockticktock

You'll be fine

it's been almost three years now.
three years ago, i abandoned family
for what i thought was love and in the
process, changed everything. and i
mean everything. Some in a good way
and some not.But like i said before,
i have no regrets.

and looking back, i was a young girl
very much in love however not knowing
what it actually is and everything i do
revolves around it and just it.
how naive.how foolish.

and now, years later...
that foolish young girl just disappeared.
faded away.gone.
no longer do i feel lost without somebody
to call me baby.

i'm a different person now.
and i'm loving it.

my dear W,

i know exactly how you feel right now.

everything you told me you went though

yesterday, i've been in your place years ago.

i just want you to see that really,you'll pull through.

and the most important thing i want you to learn i that,

yes.family is all that you've got at the end of the day.

family don't break up with you.

no matter what

makes me feel old

so today was the first day of the new semester.
i was late as usual. entering school for real lessons
for the first time after 7 long school-less months
was kinda awkward at first, getting used to the
surroundings all over again only this time i noticed
that there were so many juniors around...and it did
for a moment, make me feel old. i cannot believe that
this is my last semester here in Ngee Ann.it's unbelievable
how time just flies so fast.it's too fast.I'm just trying to
let this fact sink in...and i came to school today, attended
tutorials and lectures and i did feel like something was
missing...yes.all the crazy people I've spent the first
two years in poly are missing.
i miss you freaks, honey bastards, mamma tablas.
i guess these things do happen.

bumped into farhan today.lol.
it's just so cute that he's so shy!

nonetheless, I'm thrilled to be back in school.
WOOHOO!

Carrie Madness :)

so i finally managed to upload one.

more to come.

goodnight darlings!

snap snap!

been trying to upload carrie madness photos
but unfortunately the photos can't seem to
be able to be uploaded.TSK!

so anyway, gonna hit the tracks then the
gym tmw morning with Miss O. so i guess
its somehow a good start for the new/last
semester in Ngee Ann. gonna make full use
of the free amenities there man:)

it's finally approved!Ka-ching!!!
so what shall i do with it?
hmmm...

M-cube called me on a freaking SUNDAY!
i keep telling myself that the weekends are
strictly out of bounce...i mean, i'm just
giving you space and all afterall i do know
you're circumstances.so....
okay okay shall not think too much.
i hope you'll text me tmw.

till then fellas:)

im so aware of my surroundings?

school reopens on the 19th.
yay:)

caught carrie underwood performing live at ion Orchard.
with tabla HORRR of course! carrie underwood to tabla
is like mariah carey to Miss OCL charlene.
So you get the picture?
She was awesome.

so issit?
I'm so aware of my surroundings?
maybe just with you lah.
and yes you are right...
body says yes, head says no!
so how?

it's been 4 weekends of raya-ing man!
and I'm already feeling tired of it.
but it was really really fun lah.
and now i understand that driving can
really be tiring.
cos now i can say that i have firsthand
experience on that.

how the hell am i supposed to know man?
it's a long waiting time man.
so many things can happen in between.
or maybe it was just like all the other
spur of the moments i've had before.
But i really thought it is different this time.
:(

the only reason why we hide is cos we love you.

okay shall finish up my ice cold milk and go to bed.
goodnight freaks.

the one.

See I'm going through a situation
That I can't help
Wanna get a little closer
But I promised myself
That I would never give my heart up
Away again
Oo oo babe, I know it's hard
Butcha gotta understand it
The truth is all the hurt and the pain
And the shit that you get
When you have it
Ain't worth it
I've been there so many times
I should know better but I
Can't stop what I feel
When you're next to me
I really think I
Finally found somebody
That could be the one
But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
(Baby you're the one)
(Baby you're the one)
See the problem with relationships
In general is that it's always a game
In the beginning they'll do
Anything to have you
And once they do it's never the same
And I, know everyone out there can relate
So the question is
One: do I really wanna trust this feeling
Two: do I wanna let it pass me by
Three: do you think it's only superficial
Four: could it actually be different this time
Someone to love me
Someone to be my everything
Maybe I've stumbled upon
Finally found somebody (The only one)
That could be the one
But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love (No, no)
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous (I just don't wanna be hurt)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
(But boy I think you might be the one)
Finally found somebody
That could be the one (Maybe I've found)
But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous (Boy I'm so afraid)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
('Cause I know you're the one)
Oh baby
Sweet darling
I
I think I finally found
Finally found somebody (The only one)
That could be the one
But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous (No)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
(I don't wanna be hurt anymore)
This is bad 'cause I know that you're the one
(But I think you might really be the one)
Finally found somebody
Could be the one, but I promised myself (Finally found)
That I wouldn't give in to love
(I promised myself not to give in)
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous
This is bad
(Anymore this is bad)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
('Cause I know that you're the one)
Finally found somebody
Could be the one
(I finally found somebody that could be the one)
But I promised myself
(But I promised myself that I wouldn't give in to love)
That I wouldn't give in to love
And I'm scared
(And I'm scared)
And I'm nervous
(And I'm nervous)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
(Please, please baby baby)

ohmygosh!

this is wrong.
but you're surprisingly addictive!
i can't help it.

i can't believe this is happening.
i'll definitely come back for more!
no doubt about it.

...how?

Rollercoaster.I like!

I kinda like the way things are right now,
despite how disoriented everything is.

I think I might have bumped into the one:))
But it's simply too early to tell.

Anyway, it was just great.
Just not awesome.
But it was great!It was.
Really.

And you.The mysterious one.
Yes, I still do question myself at times.
How can I not? This is not right.
I dunno, I don't think I even know
what is and what isn't anymore.
But I bet you know that I'll keep
coming back for more.
I really can't help it.
You're just addictive.
YOU ARE!

I'm tired.
GOODNIGHTFREAKSILOVEYOUFOREVERANDEVERANDIMEANITOKAY!

Whatever works baby!

it's been a while since i met horrr.
y'knw, most of the time, the best
meet up sessions are those which
are unplanned. Those totally last
minute meet-ups.
Really.

Grrrr..

I received text message from Z a few
days ago asking me for one last favour.
So then...further down when I read the whole
message, i realised that he wanted me to delete
all and I mean ALL his pictures and posts i ever wrote
with him in it in my bloggie and everywhere else.
WTH? I mean...c'mon man. he can't expect me to
painstakingly delete everything right?
Dude it's the past. Deal with it.
Or just pretend that my blog doesn't even exist lah.
I'm sorry Z. I can't.

I went out with a friend of Z last night.
He claimed that he got my number from
another friend of Z and that he had seen me a
couple of times with Z when we were tight.
But the thing is that I've never noticed him.
So then to cut the story short...
I got bored at home last night and so
i asked him out...not knowing how he looks
like and all...but i just decided to heck it lah.
So yeah...he picked me up from my carpark
and at that point of time i was like....
Oh God...can i just make up some shit story
or excuse to cancel the date?
My gosh! He is a total mat rep.And he's skinny
and he wore freaking coloured contacts!!!
Eeew!
Unfortunately, i could not.
Oh...and the whole time i was on his bike,
i swore i was like repeating prayers over
and over again! I would love to bitch about
every single damn detail but i think i'll not
for now. I shall tell you guys personally.
So he brought me to Kallang and it was
awkward the whole freaking time lar!

So guess what?
I text ed Man asking him to save me.
Thank God he was at Geylang which is
pretty near Kallang.Right?
So then in the middle of the date, i just
couldn't take it anymore so i decided to
tell him that i had to go and that my friend
was gonna pick me up cos he needed my help.
I know i know that it was a downright lousy
excuse but seriously the whole date was
so horrible that i just had to get out of it ASAP!
And he was like...why do you have to go all of sudden?
And i was like...i dunnoe...my friend needs help.I have
to be there.HHAHAA!

And within minutes, Man came to my rescue.
Woohoo!I never felt so relieved in my life before man.
That, my friends, was that WORST date ever!
I am not interested in that particular friend of Z at all.
It was pretty clear that i wasn't interested after what i did.

Fortunately, hanging out with Man and Matin and his fiance
and sister afterwards made up for the horrible date.
Went to Changi V to fire some rockets at the Old Changi Hospital
with Man and Matin later that night and had yummy supper
at Matin's family's Western Food stall. YUM YUM!

What a night! Goodnight freaks.

i will survive

oh.actually i realised this is a better picture.

i mean, to show how much i want my long beautiful

flowing hair back.and while only time will bring that back to me,

i guess i'm stuck with my not-here-not-there hair, which by the way,

totally sucks.okay!enough said about hair.

did i mention that right now, Z and i are totally over?

like one long winded Hindustani drama lah.tak boleh angs!

yeah.over.full stop.

ahhahh!

for now, stick to it and soon you'll see.

wait wait wait!

and i just realised that we only fast for 29 days instead of the usual 30 this year!

:)

okay lah.

goodnight my lovely freaks!

sex APPEAL

darn!
somebody please help me with my parking offence appeal.

anyway,
today was a good start.
i feel alive again.
and life begins at night for moi.
with blood pumping through my veins.
the moment when all i could think of
is that shiny gold trophy at the end of
the finishing line.

oh yah!can't wait for our dinner date at
Park View Holiday Inn Hotel:)
mark it down on your calenders.
can't wait! can't wait! can't wait!
let's eat well and enjoy every moment.

F came back from SF the other day and
got me gifts straight from the heart of
Golden Gate Park! not liteally lah.
Lots and lots and lots and lots and lots
of heavenly GHIRADELLI chocs and
the cheekiest extra low rise thongs and
hipsters from VS plus a pear glace exhilarating
body wash and more stuff frm F21 too.
Woohoo!I'm glad you enjoyed you holiday
deary.you one lucky *toot*.
i love you.you know i do:)

as of now, i simply can't wait for raya!!!
i mean, i just can't wait for that celebration
spirit and mood and atmosphere and all.you know?
plus this year, i could finally drive our family during
our visitings.i know they've been waiting for this
for very long i must say.FINALLY.

oh.
i can't help but to notice how much my parents
have aged, my dad, in particular.there are times
when i'm sitting at home late at night, watching
tv and dad reaches home and opens the door, tired,
but still puts a smile on his face when he sees us.
it breaks my heart.
i love you daddy.

goodnight friends.

i need FOOD!

been feeling weak lately.
i think i need food.

i can finally pronounce the letter S
properly now!woohoo!
i swear i was so scared my speech
would be permanently affected man.

actually waiting for us to finally break
our day long fast.

faster!faster!faster!
I'M HUNGRY!

a wiser me

i had my freaking wisdom tooth extracted yesterday!
and i drove from home all the way to toa payoh
where the dental clinic is man! and the best part
was that i, nurraini bte salim, drove back to tampines
all the way from toa payoh after my freaking tooth
was extracted!isn't it amazing?

yes it is:) getting better~

half my mouth felt numb due to the anaesthetic
for about three whole hours after its was being
injected into my gum. and OH MY GOD! it was
a horrible horrible experience.i better not share.

i couldn't really talk properly right after.
especially when it comes to the pronunciation
of words with the letter S.that is sad.
and oh yah! i couldn't really eat too.
but that was yesterday!
i can finally eat real food today.YAY!
i am still dealing with practicing pronouncing
words with the letter S as it still sounds off lah.
afterall, i'm 19 and bogeh.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA!

and i swear i can still taste something that
i'm sure doesn't naturally come from my
own mouth.it must be the stuff the doc put
into my gums or smth. yucks!

i've got 2 days of MC for getting my wisdom tooth extracted.
plus i got to bring home my GIGI!

OKAY BYE!

come back to me HAIR.

hoochie coochie!

finally got myself a travel sized hand sanitizer!
i always feel dirty after work every saturday.
hate the dirty keyboard!
disgusting.

right now, i'm just mentally preparing myself
for whatever that's about to happen in the near
future.gonna keep telling myself this...
i've done it before, and i'll do it again.
DEFINITELY!

i'd have to prepare a short presentation on
my final year project research work sometime
soon.but the thing is, there's only so much that
we know about what the hell that we're doing.
ACHARIA HELP!!!

i've been doing a little research about a certain
little thing awhile ago...and although i'm not really
good at googling, i managed to get a rough idea of
what i'm getting tomorrow at the grocery store.
yeah....we're going grocery shopping people!
so exciting.

F's back from Golden Gate Park:)
woohoo!goodies, goodies and more goodies!
i love you deary.

people may think that i'm good at making
small talks with just about anybody...yes it is true,
but you see, only to a certain extend.
hmm...small, meaningless talks.
oh! which reminds me of yesterday's incident.

haliey brought me for dinner with her bf and
a friend of her bf. so, y'knw in this kind of
situations, normally you can expect
moments of awkwardness between us...
and i just refused to go down the awkward
path so i started babbling random things.
lucky for me, the atmosphere lightened and
things went pretty well i guess....
so that night, or should i say morning,
when i was all washed up and ready for bed,
i received a call from H saying tt the bf's friend
wanted me to hang out with them.full stop.
i'd rather get my beauty sleep:P
plus,
whatssup with the coloured contact lenses dude?

bumped into an old friend of mine earlier.
and she said, 'i met your ex boyfriend, Mus, the other day'
the funny thing was that she kept talking about how
good his teeth looked!HAHA!hilarious.
and i was like, righttt~ that colourblind ex boyfriend.

tabla and I were talking about Brazilian earlier
and suddenly D popped up in my screen saying
that she's going for a Brazilian tomorrow!
what a coincidence right? she's psychic!
all the very best to you D.
it's worth it baby:)

i want hair extensions!!!
missing the long long long hair i used to have.
BADLY.

i miss ct too.

goodnight freaks!

my heart sank to the pit of my stomach!

just as i had this thought of posting about the
fact that Zachary and I are officially through...
something happened.
but somehow, i'm happy it did.

cos it breaks my heart whenever i think about
us not being friends at all. yeah i mean, it may
seem pretty childish, the whole i-dun-friend-you
issue Zachary and I had, but it did happen....
and when it was all happening, i thought i had
enough...i thought i could just forget about it and
just let it go...

but today, i bumped into him.
oh and the funny thing was the moment i saw his nose
i knew it was him. and when i saw him, at that moment,
everything just came back to me like it was just yesterday.

we talked.

and i miss him.i really do.

i can't blame him for 'hating' me so much ofter all that.
but I'm just hoping that things were like it used to...
i'm sorry.

i can't help it.
i miss you. i do. :(

you little baby!

happy 25th birthday DQ!
dude! you're kinda old!
but fortunately you look as cute as a baby still:)

it was one hell of a day at TLL today.
i have to say that this is gonna take a lot from me.
lots.time, energy and everything.
but it's okay.
i'll get through this.

i'm not a direct person.
i am very indirect.
but that's how i am.

ok.i had this weird freaky dream yesterday when
i was having my post breakfast nap.
it was freaky i tell you.
it kinda made me feel like creating one huge gap in-bet-ween
you and me.but it would be kinda mean cos clearly it's just a dream.
BUT i'm still very freaked out.VERY.

anyway,green tea is a diuretic.
duane said that soon i'd have to connect a tube that starts from me,
of course to our lab's nearest toilet.LOL!
funny funny guy:)

i wanna go to bed now,
goodnight world.

just as i think i know...

one more time

So for those of you out there enjoying your
National Day holiday like moi, you have just
a few hours more to soak up and enjoy the
holiday. Cos tomorrow onwards, hell begins.

We were supposed to go back to TLL today
as Mondays are dissection days and normally
hectic days...But we, Charlene and I, decided to
just heck it and enjoy a day of well deserved
break.

Anyway,
I AM GETTING BETTER AT DRIVING!!!
I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONESS!!!PLUS, I'M ALREADY
GETTING THE HANG OF REVERSE PARKINGGGG!!!
WOOHOO!!!

Oh...Bumped into Imran and family at the Metro
Expo Sale. A very shocking surprise i must say.
Awkward too. And his baby brother is sooooo
adorable!

Okay.That's it!
Goodnight world.

i see it now

I was lost yesterday.

All I could see was darkness.

I freaked out.

But today,

I saw a light.

Finally, a direction.

A fifty dollar fine!

Let's start with the latest.
Know about the tropical fruit fair held at the Sg expo?
Yah...picked mom and aunt up from the expo after watching
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince at E-Hub with
Yaya and Wawa and Fizah and Dillah and Syirin earlier
this evening. Surprisingly, I enjoyed watching it despite
friends and people saying that the movie wasn't a good one.
Seriously. I mean, I did expect myself to be bored to death
during the movie but NO, I wasn't at all. In fact, I was craving
for more of Harry Potter when the movie came to an unexpected
ending.

So anyway, mom finally allowed me to drive out with my cousins
today! That's quite a big step for her actually. I mean, she never
allowed me to drive without her presence before. Or maybe, if
she can't be around, at least daddy will. So, YAY!

Unfortunately, due to the lack of common sense, or should I say
lack of experience, I totally forgot about bringing along a parking
coupon/cashcard. So, since we were all in a hurry to catch the
movie cos we were already like 15 mins late, we just left the car
at the carpark without any parking coupons. So there you go people,
my very first parking ticket! In other words, SAMAN.

Anyway, I did a lot of driving today.
Really happy with that. Plus, I think, think, I might already got the
hang of the normal vertical parking.Woohoo~!

Hmm...what else?
Oh yah! I was accompanying my nenek to the market earlier today
after religious class, and I think I did bump into him. Except that
I don't think he'd recognise me all covered up from head to toe.
Oh well...It doesn't matter.

Anyway, Voltron and I watched our first movie yesterday.
Totally unplanned. The cool thing was that we watched it
by the beach! See the thing was that we were hanging out
by the beach late last night then we heard something which
sounds like a TV turned on really really loud. So we went to
look for the source. We ended up in this open space where people
were watching BATMAN while enjoying the breezy night by the beach.
So we joined them lah.LOL.
Totally cool.

My contacts are really dry now so I guess see you later, alligator!

you're not a man.you're just a mannequin.

I'm gonna hafta start reading reviews of scientific papers soon.
But before I get to that, I shall just do a little blogging.

I am so going for a manicure very soon:))

How do I get closer to you?

I freak out every single day thinking about tomorrow.

I'm sick and tired of travelling to NUS every bloody day.

I want my hair to grow, grow and grow!FAST!

I'm gonna finish up the yummy White Choc Macadamia Nut soft cookies F and I made.

Serious infatuation.

Bus no. 10.

Neural stem cells:balancing self renewal with differentiation by Chris Q. Doe.

I feel like an online stalker.It sucks!

I am very very very very thirsty, I can swallow an entire ocean!WATER!!!

What else?

I love white.

I can't wait for August and the start of my new mission.

My sister is such a sweetheart.

I really wanna SLOW-MO the video in my previous post at the specific
part where white sucked the strawberry off my tongue...But have no idea how.

K, I know you want me.

I need to do soul searching.

Can't wait for our little project Voltron!

Snap!Snap!Sanp!

Maybe a pedicure too:)

Hmm...There you go.Abstract post.

Nitey night sweethearts!

Peace and Harmony.

Enjoy!:)

Great.

Left side of my freaking earpiece isn't working.
And now, the pink zen stone is not functioning.

GREAT!

boo hoo hoo.

I hate having these feelings!
Yeah...I guess you're right Tabla.
I think I do have a little bit of a crush on him.
Or maybe...
I'm just PMS-ing.I dunnoe.

Btw, I drove to Yishun today to pick Daddy up.
I felt less nervous than usual.Which is good.
However,thank you God for protecting
all of us in the car.
Really.
I mean...considering the fact that I can be quite
reckless due to, I believe, lack of driving experience.

Anyway,
I have a crush on you.