I'M BACK!

I'm back from HI Club Instructors' Camp!
Yay! I got home on Sunday evening.
Quite a long story actually...
For further details, please ask me personally.
If I'm very close to you then don't bother asking.
I might probably have told you already.
Just one word to describe this whole camp...
I never thought it would turn out the way it did.
INTERESTING.

Dear Friend,

You made me feel so secured, protected and safe.

You made me blush. ;)

HEY HEY YOU YOU!

I NEED YOU TO SEE THIS

in fact I want you to see everything!

I hate it when you sleep!

I hate it when you call me one moment then a minute later you fall asleep!
I know that you are tired.
I understand.
But can't you like call me before you even feel like sleeping?
I'm really really really angry!
Really angry that i have to blog about this!
You know what I'm blogging about this while you are still on the line snoring away.
I feel like hanging up the freaking phone NOW!
and I AM GOING TO!
I JUST DID!
Do you know that I do not have a WORKING earpiece or a bluetooth headset?!
The reason why I am telling you this is because...
I don't have those things.
YET I am more than willing to stretch the conversation even though my handphone gets hot
when I press it against my ears for far too long...
But you?
I shall not even start.
All I'm asking is FOR YOU TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH ME.
That is why I keep telling you that 'I can't get enough of you.'
Simply because in the first place, I don't even get much of you.

Sorry people.Just some anger that needed to be released.
Anyway, I was going to blog about what happened and what's going to happen.
But now I don't really have the mood already.
DAMMIT!
I'm sorry that this bloggie has to be so negative and emo, according to some people.
I guess it's true.

AND OH BY THE WAY

I'm turning 18 soon!

WHATSSUP RAINI?!

Ok.Let me tell you guys what's up.

School reopens on the 16th April 2008,
Which means that I'll not be able to wake up LATE, like REALLY LATE anymore,
And I'll have to start kicking myself into the whole school routine all over again.
That's GOOD and BAD news for me, if you guys wanna know.
An opportunity for me to cut down my daily consumption.
Cos I tell you, during the hols I EAT and EAT and EAT
LIKE NOBODYS BUSINESS!
And that's scary.
I don't even want to wear certain clothes in my closet anymore you know,
Fearing exposure of certain parts that over the hols have enlarged,
Not in a good way, but in a disgusting way.
I think the amount that I eat a day is sufficient to feed a whole third world country!

He got a new job.
His new workplace is somewhere near or at the Science Park.
He said that it's pretty near my school.
The thought of that EXCITES me.
But you know what, I wouldn't want to give myself hopes
Of the possibility of things that might come along with this change.
Cos I HATE it when you HOPE so much, in the end all you get is DISAPPOINTMENT.
I thought after being disappointed countless times, I would be IMMUNED to the feeling,
But unfortunately, it still hurts just as bad as the first time.
I have no idea why I'm still here.

Tabla and Mary is HOME SWEET HOME.
Can't wait to see them and see wgat they got for me.
And of course, HUGGY HUGGY too.
We are so gonna sit down and chill and chat and catch up
Till our butts are numb and our jaws ache.

Amazingly, I realised that I actually quite enjoy teaching my sister.
This is so opposite what I initially thought.
I thought I was going to not like it all and I'm just doing it for the money.
Oh Yes, if you haven't already know, I am tutoring my little sister.
And I get paid.
Btw, I'm no teacher material.
It's hard sometimes and I do get frustrated.
But doing this really taught me one thing.
PATIENCE.
Not that I'm not patient already.I am, just not with certain people.

I can't wait to get paid.
By my mom and my boss, the FA(Financial Advisor).
Not that my pay is going to be like WHOA!
But it's still money you know.
MONEY MONEY MONEY!MUST BE FUNNY!IN A RICH MAN'S WORLD!
I'm very shallow when it comes to money.
All I can think of is to spend it all away,
Buying THINGS, THINGS and more THINGS.
Especially THINGS that fills my WARDROBE.
That's all.
I can't SAVE.
I suck at it. Like really suck!
There was this time me and him went for a movie.
And we bought this popcorn set which comes with a free little COW piggy bank.
And knowing the fact that HE has a few small piggy banks at home which he only puts in $1 coins,
I was excited to kickstart my saving habit by doing the same lar.
First few days was fine...
I DID slot in a few $1 coins.
Unfortunately, the piggy bank is the 'can open' kind.
So I'll leave the ending of this story to you guys.
Bottomline is, I SUCK AT SAVING!

I would love to go on and on with this entry
But I think I'll stop here.
I actually don't think ANYBODY would even bother to READ this post anyway.

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE, TREES, STARS, MOON, COMPUTER!

FOURTEENmarch08

My First Picasa Picture

I HATE THAT I DON'T HATE YOU

That's how much I love you

That's how much I need you

And I can’t stand you
Must everything you do
Make me wanna smile?
Can I not like it for awhile?

But you won’t let me
You upset me boy then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did

But I hate it
You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long, that’s wrong

But I hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so..

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that
I Love you beyond the reason why

And it just ain’t right
One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me

never been said better

TO YOU

AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN! DEAR YOU, I HAVE LOST COUNT ON HOW MANY TIMES SHIT LIKE THIS HAPPENS!I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL NOW.I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I SHOULD JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS AFTER SEEING WHAT I SAW OR TALK TO YOU AND HOPE THAT YOU WOULD COME UP WITH SOMETHING NICE TO SAY TO CONVINCE ME THAT IT IS NOT WHAT IT SEEMS LIKE.I'M SO SICK OF THIS YOU KNOW! I KNOW YOU KNOW THAT I'LL NOT COME YELLING AT YOU ASKING FOR EXPLAINATION EVEN THOUGH SOMETIMES I THINK I SHOULD DO THAT, AFTER SO MANY TIMES YOU HAD TO PUT ME THORUGH THIS. BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU CAN TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME. JUST IN CASE YOU FORGET, LET ME REMIND YOU THAT I MAY NOT REACT AS VIOLENTLY AS MOST GIRLS WOULD BUT GUESS WHAT?! I FEEL AS SAD, AS ANGRY, AS DISAPPOINTED AS MOST NORMAL HUMAN BEINGS WOULD FEEL!YOU KNOW I WOULDN'T MAKE A BIG FUSS OUT OF SHIT LIKE THIS BECAUSE YOU KNOW I COULDN'T BEAR TO LOSE YOU.BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU SHOULD KEEP ON MAKING ME GO THROUGH SHIT LIKE THIS!I HAVE FEELINGS TOO YOU KNOW!I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL NOW.I ALWAYS WONDER WHY THINGS LIKE THIS ALWAYS HAVE TO HAPPEN JUST AS I'M BEGINNING TO THINK THAT THINGS ARE GETTING PERFECT.WHY?WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO DO THIS TO ME?I'M TIRED OF THIS.WHAT IS IT THAT YOU REALLY WANT?TELL ME COS I DON'T KNOW.

JUST ONE QUESTION....

WHY?

I NEED TO KNOW.

pasarMalam

Enjoy!

Retarded Donkey and Cacat Tiger @ The Pasar Malam

BORING!!!!!!

Yes.I finally got myself a job.

I am a TRAINEE Personal Assistant for a Financial Advisor.
I only work 2 days a week,
And 4 hours everytime I go to work.
Quite flexible, as a matter of fact it is very flexible,
In the sense that I can actually decide the time I start work.
The pay however is ok only lah...
It's quite low you may say but its
Definitely way better than wasting my life away
Doing nothing that benefits me besides
Stuffing myself with more junk food than ever
And piling on more and more fats on my already "babaty" freaking body.
WAYYYYYYYYYYY better!

But it's ALL THE WAY in FREAKING TOA PAYOH lar!
Luckily there's a direct bus from my house to the person's house.
And lucky meI got my CANDYinpink to entertain me.
I think I would have time to have a really quick nap too.
LOL. I'm just trying to think positive with all those negativity
I get from commiting myself into this job.

OK!Enough said about my new BORING job!
OH ya!I just realised that I've gotten used to typing with the missing letter 'E'
That I don't find it irritating anymore.
And I totally forgot that I was supposed to CALL UP the ACER guys to fix it.
If I EVER were tyo call them up,
HOW I WISHED THOSE ACER GUYS WERE HOT GUYS IN UNIFORMS.
LOL.I'm sure FARZ would drop dead if that EVER happens.
HOT GUYS IN UNIFORMS.

YUMMY!

Farz...You're such a sweetheart.
Thanks for those 'oleh-oleh' from BANGKOK!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!

And Joanna! Your FITO so cute la.
So sweet.
So obedient.
SO DAMN CUTE!

DAMMIT!I HAVE WORK AT 10AM TMW!
AT TOA PAYOH!

I miss u TABLA and MARY!
Come home soon.

Shisha Cam Whoring