TO YOU

AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN! DEAR YOU, I HAVE LOST COUNT ON HOW MANY TIMES SHIT LIKE THIS HAPPENS!I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL NOW.I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I SHOULD JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS AFTER SEEING WHAT I SAW OR TALK TO YOU AND HOPE THAT YOU WOULD COME UP WITH SOMETHING NICE TO SAY TO CONVINCE ME THAT IT IS NOT WHAT IT SEEMS LIKE.I'M SO SICK OF THIS YOU KNOW! I KNOW YOU KNOW THAT I'LL NOT COME YELLING AT YOU ASKING FOR EXPLAINATION EVEN THOUGH SOMETIMES I THINK I SHOULD DO THAT, AFTER SO MANY TIMES YOU HAD TO PUT ME THORUGH THIS. BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU CAN TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME. JUST IN CASE YOU FORGET, LET ME REMIND YOU THAT I MAY NOT REACT AS VIOLENTLY AS MOST GIRLS WOULD BUT GUESS WHAT?! I FEEL AS SAD, AS ANGRY, AS DISAPPOINTED AS MOST NORMAL HUMAN BEINGS WOULD FEEL!YOU KNOW I WOULDN'T MAKE A BIG FUSS OUT OF SHIT LIKE THIS BECAUSE YOU KNOW I COULDN'T BEAR TO LOSE YOU.BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU SHOULD KEEP ON MAKING ME GO THROUGH SHIT LIKE THIS!I HAVE FEELINGS TOO YOU KNOW!I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL NOW.I ALWAYS WONDER WHY THINGS LIKE THIS ALWAYS HAVE TO HAPPEN JUST AS I'M BEGINNING TO THINK THAT THINGS ARE GETTING PERFECT.WHY?WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO DO THIS TO ME?I'M TIRED OF THIS.WHAT IS IT THAT YOU REALLY WANT?TELL ME COS I DON'T KNOW.

JUST ONE QUESTION....

WHY?

I NEED TO KNOW.