Sigh~

I feel like crap. 

No. Actually I feel like crap everyday these days.
I feel like almost everything is going downhill for me.
And I'm actually beginning to dislike myself more and more.

I just had a shower and somehow I decided to take a picture
of my face just so to really see how it is right now as compared
to the last time I took such a photo for the same purpose. I am 
really speechless when I began to look at it. It's horrible. I feel 
like its getting worse despite being so bad already. I don't like 
looking at myself anymore. And I can't stand people looking at 
me either. I feel devalued, if not worthless because of this. I 
even feel like .... sigh~

And again... the talk about the never ending battle I have with 
my weight. I don't even know where to begin... Actually, I don't
even wanna start. 

I'm in a horrible place with myself right now.