SO ANGRY

I've put in so much effort in trying to prepare for a decent celebration for you guys and you just dilly dally your freaking way home and by the time you get home everyone else are already asleep! and now all you say is...'alah besok je lah!?'.you shouldn't have went for supper with those people.i specifically said that I've got a little surprise for you and you took it lightly? FYI, i was so excited for it okay!i freaking rushed home just for that.for once i thought i could finally please you.both of you.

I'm disappointed.

stop the yo-yo!

01-11-09
breathe and dive back in.

with love

29-10-1988

is the day mom and dad got married.

Happy 21st Wedding Anniversary Mama and Papa!

ticktockticktock

You'll be fine

it's been almost three years now.
three years ago, i abandoned family
for what i thought was love and in the
process, changed everything. and i
mean everything. Some in a good way
and some not.But like i said before,
i have no regrets.

and looking back, i was a young girl
very much in love however not knowing
what it actually is and everything i do
revolves around it and just it.
how naive.how foolish.

and now, years later...
that foolish young girl just disappeared.
faded away.gone.
no longer do i feel lost without somebody
to call me baby.

i'm a different person now.
and i'm loving it.

my dear W,

i know exactly how you feel right now.

everything you told me you went though

yesterday, i've been in your place years ago.

i just want you to see that really,you'll pull through.

and the most important thing i want you to learn i that,

yes.family is all that you've got at the end of the day.

family don't break up with you.

no matter what

makes me feel old

so today was the first day of the new semester.
i was late as usual. entering school for real lessons
for the first time after 7 long school-less months
was kinda awkward at first, getting used to the
surroundings all over again only this time i noticed
that there were so many juniors around...and it did
for a moment, make me feel old. i cannot believe that
this is my last semester here in Ngee Ann.it's unbelievable
how time just flies so fast.it's too fast.I'm just trying to
let this fact sink in...and i came to school today, attended
tutorials and lectures and i did feel like something was
missing...yes.all the crazy people I've spent the first
two years in poly are missing.
i miss you freaks, honey bastards, mamma tablas.
i guess these things do happen.

bumped into farhan today.lol.
it's just so cute that he's so shy!

nonetheless, I'm thrilled to be back in school.
WOOHOO!

Carrie Madness :)

so i finally managed to upload one.

more to come.

goodnight darlings!

snap snap!

been trying to upload carrie madness photos
but unfortunately the photos can't seem to
be able to be uploaded.TSK!

so anyway, gonna hit the tracks then the
gym tmw morning with Miss O. so i guess
its somehow a good start for the new/last
semester in Ngee Ann. gonna make full use
of the free amenities there man:)

it's finally approved!Ka-ching!!!
so what shall i do with it?
hmmm...

M-cube called me on a freaking SUNDAY!
i keep telling myself that the weekends are
strictly out of bounce...i mean, i'm just
giving you space and all afterall i do know
you're circumstances.so....
okay okay shall not think too much.
i hope you'll text me tmw.

till then fellas:)

im so aware of my surroundings?

school reopens on the 19th.
yay:)

caught carrie underwood performing live at ion Orchard.
with tabla HORRR of course! carrie underwood to tabla
is like mariah carey to Miss OCL charlene.
So you get the picture?
She was awesome.

so issit?
I'm so aware of my surroundings?
maybe just with you lah.
and yes you are right...
body says yes, head says no!
so how?

it's been 4 weekends of raya-ing man!
and I'm already feeling tired of it.
but it was really really fun lah.
and now i understand that driving can
really be tiring.
cos now i can say that i have firsthand
experience on that.

how the hell am i supposed to know man?
it's a long waiting time man.
so many things can happen in between.
or maybe it was just like all the other
spur of the moments i've had before.
But i really thought it is different this time.
:(

the only reason why we hide is cos we love you.

okay shall finish up my ice cold milk and go to bed.
goodnight freaks.

the one.

See I'm going through a situation
That I can't help
Wanna get a little closer
But I promised myself
That I would never give my heart up
Away again
Oo oo babe, I know it's hard
Butcha gotta understand it
The truth is all the hurt and the pain
And the shit that you get
When you have it
Ain't worth it
I've been there so many times
I should know better but I
Can't stop what I feel
When you're next to me
I really think I
Finally found somebody
That could be the one
But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
(Baby you're the one)
(Baby you're the one)
See the problem with relationships
In general is that it's always a game
In the beginning they'll do
Anything to have you
And once they do it's never the same
And I, know everyone out there can relate
So the question is
One: do I really wanna trust this feeling
Two: do I wanna let it pass me by
Three: do you think it's only superficial
Four: could it actually be different this time
Someone to love me
Someone to be my everything
Maybe I've stumbled upon
Finally found somebody (The only one)
That could be the one
But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love (No, no)
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous (I just don't wanna be hurt)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
(But boy I think you might be the one)
Finally found somebody
That could be the one (Maybe I've found)
But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous (Boy I'm so afraid)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
('Cause I know you're the one)
Oh baby
Sweet darling
I
I think I finally found
Finally found somebody (The only one)
That could be the one
But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous (No)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
(I don't wanna be hurt anymore)
This is bad 'cause I know that you're the one
(But I think you might really be the one)
Finally found somebody
Could be the one, but I promised myself (Finally found)
That I wouldn't give in to love
(I promised myself not to give in)
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous
This is bad
(Anymore this is bad)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
('Cause I know that you're the one)
Finally found somebody
Could be the one
(I finally found somebody that could be the one)
But I promised myself
(But I promised myself that I wouldn't give in to love)
That I wouldn't give in to love
And I'm scared
(And I'm scared)
And I'm nervous
(And I'm nervous)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
(Please, please baby baby)

ohmygosh!

this is wrong.
but you're surprisingly addictive!
i can't help it.

i can't believe this is happening.
i'll definitely come back for more!
no doubt about it.

...how?

Rollercoaster.I like!

I kinda like the way things are right now,
despite how disoriented everything is.

I think I might have bumped into the one:))
But it's simply too early to tell.

Anyway, it was just great.
Just not awesome.
But it was great!It was.
Really.

And you.The mysterious one.
Yes, I still do question myself at times.
How can I not? This is not right.
I dunno, I don't think I even know
what is and what isn't anymore.
But I bet you know that I'll keep
coming back for more.
I really can't help it.
You're just addictive.
YOU ARE!

I'm tired.
GOODNIGHTFREAKSILOVEYOUFOREVERANDEVERANDIMEANITOKAY!