Read Between The Lines

i need changes right now...

a lot of things feel old and stale and gray and so yesterday and so BORING

i need more colour in my life

i need a boost of energy

i need to go out there and try something new

i need fresh air

i need excitement

i need life

i don't want to waste my life away gaining nothing but age.

time is wasted

sometimes i know that time is wasted but i just keep denying it, pretending that I'm ok with it

But the fact is that It Is Not OK

i just can't show or say...

...............Please do something about it...............

Dream Big! People say...

Ridiculous...

I dreamt that i took part in America's Next Top Model .

I have to say that I've been having bizarre dreams lately...

BUT!

I like it...I'm totally enjoying it ;P.

Please sprinkle more dream dust on me.

And Oh Ya...

This post is regarding my female neighbours.

I realised that whenever they see me not looking like I'm going to school, they will ask questions like this....'Dah tak skola lagi?' or 'Dah kerje eh?' or 'Skola kat mane skrg?' and all questions that is related to school and the fact that they thought i entered the freaking workforce just because i DO NOT LOOK LIKE I STILL GO TO SCHOOL.

You know what, i think the reason is that i look matured.

I still don't really know if looking matured is a good thing or not, at 17.

I don't know.

Anyway.......SO WHAT!

To my honey bastards, if you don't understand the malay parts of this post which i strongly think so, as i said before, YOU CAN ALWAYS ASK!

Mad About Shoes

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOOOOVE THE SHOES!

Check out this website...

http://www.melissaaustralia.com.au/

Makes me drool

Self-Explainatory

Randomness again and again

I realised that within this period of the fasting month i lost track of how many neighbours i happen to see around my HDB estate ask me the same question.'Where have you been?', 'I haven't seen you for a while.', 'Long time never see you'......

I will then smile politely and say, 'Been going to school......', or ' Haven't been going out during the fasting month'....And smile again and make a polite exit...

I don't know if it is coincidental or what la....But all the neighbours who asked that question are male neighbours...Unfortunately most of them are either married or or too old for me to be interested in or just plain attached.....haha

I think the explanation for why only male neighbours ask me that question should be because they are the ones who goes out to work and spend most of the outside home, where they are most unlikely to bump into me. See...logical explanation...On the other hand, their wives are always around the area so they have higher chances of bumping into me...Therefore, it would be a redundant question for them.

My new SEMESTER's Resolutions

STOP PROCRASTINATING!
NO MORE LAST MINUTE WORK
STOP MAKING FUN OF LECTURERS
DON'T ALWAYS BE LATE FOR LECTURES AND TUTORIALS
NO MORE SNACKING DURING LECTURES
REDUCE NOISE LEVEL
DO NOT DISTURB 'THE SCIENTIST'
BE NICE TO THE 'blah blah blah blah LAR!' GIRL
BRING YOUR OWN TISSUE PAPER
STOP HATING WILBERT
DO NOT ASSUME THAT THE COCKY ASSES ARE COCKY ASSES
DO NOT 'WAH SEH!' IN FRONT OF JAMIEN
WATCH YOUR STEP WHILE WAH SEH-ING OR YOU WILL FALL AND SPRAIN YOUR ANKLE BADLY!
ALWAYS FEAR RETRIBUTION
CHOOSE GROUP MEMBERS WISELY
DO NOT SLEEP DURING LECTURES
PAY ATTENTION DURING LECTURES
ALWAYS BRING A CARDIGAN FOR LECTURES
DO NOT BE TOO TALKATIVE OR PEOPLE LIKE MRS CHAN WILL KEEP CALLING OUT YOUR NAME WHENEVER YOU OPEN YOUR MOUTH

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SMILE AND BE NICE

ALWAYS HAVE FUN!

To My Honey Bastards

Dear Mary,

I am very sorry that i haven't had a chance to go on out manicure and pedicure date we planned a long time ago.It keeps popping in my mind though...I promise we will have that meni and pedi session soon after the fasting month when i have my menses when school reopens OK?I cut my nails the other day but I'm sure they will be long enough by then.When the time comes we shall go WITHOUT hesitations OK?

Love,
Raini

Dear XYZ,

Let's all go for meni and pedi session together OK?Remember to keep your nails long OK?Then we shall all go shopping and shop till we drop with a teeny weeny handbag on one hand and bags and bags of stuff on the other hand.And oh ya, not forgetting our usual hi-tea session.Then maybe drink a little.With our pretty nails done, maybe the counter person will believe that we are all above 18.And if it doesn't work, lets all doll up and show a little cleavage! Don't forget to dump our nerdy glasses too.
I'm sure it will work!

Love,
Raini

Sombody Save Me!

Was waiting for this moment to come for quite some time now...Now that the moment has come, I kept wondering to myself why was I so excited...Day by day, anticipating this freaking moment....

AND ALL I GET is a freaking cramp and frequent toilet trips.

Somebody please SAVE me from this misery.

Ignore me.I'm exaggerating.

Peace

Sorry Mary. I had to.

Randomness....Yet again...

I remembered singing tons of songs with this particular friend back in secondary school...We were like so obsessed with singing in class whenever we had the chance to...To hell what others thought of us...We just sang our hearts out...

I can make it nice and naughty...

Be the devil and angel too...

Got a heart and soul and body...

Let's see what this love can do.....

Baby, I'm perfect for you...

Ohh oh, ohh..........

And on and on and on we sang till the cows come home.

I miss those times

Mood Swings?

For some reason if you ask me how i feel this very moment, i would say that there's something at the back of my mind telling me that somehow SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT! It's an uncomfortable feeling...A feeling as if you should have seen it coming BUT you just DIDN'T...

Unsure.......................................................................................................................................................

I Don't know

I really don't

You Tell Me

Before I forget!

I was watching TV earlier, my dad was getting ready to go off for work...

He told me this...

'Jangan lupe tido tau!'

It actually means ' Don't forget to sleep'.

How in the world can i FORGET to sleep?

Tell me papa...

Hahaha!

My dad is just so cute.

; )

Mama....I love you

I've been staying home for quite some time now... Helping out at home...Doing some cleaning...Doing some cooking too... Funny that i actually just can't allow myself to go out during this fasting month even though i know that if i insist, my mom will not do anything about it. Not that she wouldn't do anything about it...She would if she could but the thing is i think she just gave in and another thing is that if i insist, i insist...If i could put it in a phrase that would perfectly describe how i feel about this situation, it would be I JUST 'TAK SAMPAI HATI'...As we all know, everything happens for a reason...I think i just figured out the reason why I'm stuck in my house...You see I've been neglecting my family at home...I've been out and about before the fasting month...Rarely looking forward to spend time at home with mama, papa, fendi and syirin...Now that i spend most of my time at home, i could tell that my mom is more than happy to have me around...She used to always say this whenever I'm about to go out, 'Kau ni eh takde kerje lain, merayap je siang malam. Tak bole ke kau dudok kat rumah?'... and i would just smile... I realised that whenever I'm in the kitchen helping her prepare food for buke, she would tell me stories about a lot of things...mostly about her past, tales about how i was like when i was little, funny stories about me and my cousins growing up in my arwah atok's shop and a lot more la...I really find it interesting...Sometimes when we're cooking, she would take glances out of the kitchen window and start talking about people she sees...i don't mean talking bad about them...You see, my mom and all of us used to spend most of our time at my late grandfather's provision shop which is directly opposite my place, and my mom and a few other aunties of mine would run it from day to night, for so many freaking years. Over the years my mom knows the customers who buys stuff from our shop on a daily basis and these customers usually stay around my area...So my mom would tell me things she knows about the person she happens to see at that instant...and i would always end up laughing my ass off...I actually don't really know where this story is going...hahahaha

My point is I LOVE HER.

But most of the time i just take her for granted and i know it.
And that's something i would never forgive myself for.

I guess it's true that you will never learn to appreciate the existance of someone you really love until you lose them...

Puberty

Pimple.

A huge one.

One that seemed like a mosquito bite.

But don't be fooled!

It's a FREAKING pimple!

Briuse is "Lebam"

Not for the faint hearted

When i first realised i had a bruise.
A day after i realised that i had a bruise.
Today.Many days after i realised i had a bruise.

I showed my mom my bruise the other day.And the first thing she ask me is whether or not it hurts. So i said 'No la', because it felt like nothing unless IF i press it la.Then she said, 'Kalau tak sakit tu pelesit la'.Pelesit is a black magic creature which appears as a cricket but it actually sucks the blood of humans.After which the person will develop a bruise which does not hurt.Then i told my mom that it actually hurts if i press it.So i conclude that i must have banged my leg hard into something without realising it.

You know, i do believe that all these black magic practices exist and it is damn bloody real.But i pray that my loved ones and i will never be involved in that kind of activity be it accidental or on purpose.

IT IS DANGEROUSSSSSS!

The Perfect Life

LIFE

LOVE

HEALTH

CAREER

MONEY

FAMILY

I'm Thinking...

For some reason...

I tend to analyse the things that you say.

Always.

I think, I think too much about what you think.

Which makes me think...

What do you think?

Am i thinking too much?

Raini wonders.

Personality Disorder #1

NARCISSISM

Is it?

Love reduces efficiency by 3000%

Is it?

Routine

For the next 20 days or so, my life, in a nutshell shall be something like this......

Torture!
12pm- Rise and Shine

12pm to 1pm- House chores [I seem to be doing it more often than usual actually... I used to be able to tolerate messes around the house but i realised that lately i really cant stand it...And there ONLY 3 places in the house where i willing clean, such as the BALCONY, the LIVING ROOM, MY PINK TOILET and obviously MY BEDROOM.]

1pm to 2pm- When i meet my rubber duckie...

3pm- Grocery shopping

All the way to 7pm- Cook and Prepare to break our fast

8+pm to 9pm- Prayer

9pm to 2/3am- TV/ My Lappie

2/3am to 12pm- Sleep like a baby

And the cycle goes ON and ON and ON and ON.......................

BORING!

Raini thinks it stinks!

Just Don't!

Don't leave me Suspicious...

Wonders of Technology

4E1 class BBQ
Edited by Aisyah
Ct's Bdae party
Edited by Aisyah
'O' level result collection day

These are a few of the many pictures i stumbled across while i was surfing the net.
The power of technology!

Just so Sad

I feel like a freakin' CINDERELLA!

Why does it have to be so hard?

I feel so bad.

Does it have to be like this ALL the time?

I'M so sorry You had to go through this.

you still love me right?

I MISS YOU!

US

Yesterday, i decided to google for "Nurraini Bte Salim". Something that only a person who's so damn free would actually do. Anyway, as i was browsing through the search results, i saw one which led me to my friend's blog, Aisyah. then i was reading this post she posted about her cliques WITH our individual pictures, which includes me la, and a few others like CT, Noraini, and Suzana. Let me show you what she wrote about me.........

Nurraini Bte Salim
"THE BestFriend. =) Got only closer to her when we're in Secondary Two and I love her. Honestly speaking, I used to hate her because she was just too perfect. Good grades, blessed family, well-behaved and positive attitude revolvED around her. I was even angry when she got close to Raihanah because I thought she was stealing MY bestfriend. haha... Jealous you may want to call it. Yeah.. Childish? I know.. Those were the times, huh? But now, I love her truckloads. No doubt over the years she has done a number of unreasonable things and unacceptable stuffs but maybe that's just the way she is. Maybe she's finally out of her shell. Maybe she's finally free from being too cooped up. Just maybe.*shrugs* Hence, the drastic change. I've always enjoyed her company. We can talk about anything and everything. From family to academic stuffs to BGR to make up to lingerie to foreplay to sex. You name it. We've talked about it. Just like that. Really interesting girl with full of knowledge and ahem* experience. We're not ashamed of one another. We burped, farted, drooled, ogle at guys' butt all with one another. Have to be really open-minded when talking to her. Yet, some people just don't get it. *shrugs* Im gonna miss her so much.... =)) "

All that was what she wrote about me.

Don't get me wrong. I'm not trying to say that I'm not happy about that post or anything. My point is that when i read through all that, it makes me think of all the good and bad times we had together. For four years we, all 5 of us, actually stick together. Many times we had conflicts but as far as i could remember, we were really happy.We cried a lot and we laughed even more. And now i come to think that the rest of us perhaps have been a little too harsh on one of us. Don't you think so?

I miss u all so much la.

To the extend that i actually feel like crying now.

Raini misses you.

FREAKING PISSED

I don't want to wake up for sahur anymore!

I have such selfish siblings EVER!

If it wasn't the fasting month, i would have already showed my anger towards them there and then.

But, i just have this echoing noises inside my head telling me 'Sabar...Sabar".

So i resorted to blogging instead, to hopefully vent my freaking anger.

Raini is pissed!

72 Hours With Honey Bastards

Oh My Honey Bastards!

Butterflies In my Belly

Exam results will be released tomorrow at 9 am.

Selamat Berpuasa

Selamat berpuasa kepada semua umat Islam di seluruh dunia.

Semoga kita semua diberkati oleh Allah di bulan yang mulia ini.

Amin.

Nurraini Bte Salim

Home Sweet Home

I'M HOME EVERYBODY!

Nurraini Bte Salim

Public Announcement

Raini is out having crazy fun!

Raini will be back on 12 September 2007.

Randomness

Went to the Singapore Expo today. Saw this interesting promotion about eyelash perming while i was there, $10 only. According to what i know, they ususlly charge eyelash perming at about $20 to $50 depending on the place you go. So i got excited and went for it. I PERMED MY EYELASHES. Was quite sad with the end result actually. It didn't turn out like i expected it to be. On the brighter side, it looks nice when i applied MASCARA on. On the much brighter side, MUM paid for it. *GRINNING*
Btw when was the last time you tried something for the first time?

Time to get new contacts and flaunt my new lashes!

On the way to the Expo, i heard this song in the cab. It goes smth like, "Don' wanna love you if you don't love me...Don't wanna need you if u don't need me too.........blah blah......tell you this tonight". Any idea what's the title and who sang it? I know someone do but i just don't feel like asking that someone. Im having earworms because of it you know.

That song kept repeating in my head la. I really need to know!!!!! HELP!

Over the years, i realised that whenever i have throat discomfort or sore throat or anything like that, i will be down with fever soon after of that. And guess what? I AM HAVING A FREAKING ITCHY THROAT. It doesn't feel really sore la but i know that it doesn't feel like my normal throat. It's disturbing u know.

ITCHY throat.

Yesterday night while my Bf was watching TV and i was in my room, my mum had a little chat with him. I actually over heard some parts of the conversation. She was talking about the same old things...It's not that i totally disagree with her. I really feel that it's not the right time to be talking about it. Thank god he's ok after the conversation. or at least he seemed ok. I just hope he's ok. I actually don't really know how he felt during and after the conversation. Mama....mama...

Mum's Interference. What's new?


*Raini is done with what she has to say*

Pissing me off

Thankfully Nurraini Bte Salim is a person with patience.

1)Somebody said something that hit one of my nerve.

OMG. Don't you realise that you never do anything much anyway. So could you please take back your words? You do the same old thing every time. To be honest, I'm quite bored of that already.

2)Somebody pulled off the letter 'E' in the keypad of my lappie.

I highly suspect that my FREAKING sister is the culprit. But i realised that scolding doesn't do good either.

Setting you free with the power of three

Euphoria

Positive thinking

I AM HAPPY!

I AM HEALTHY!

I AM WEALTHY!

Try saying it to yourself the first thing in the morning when you wake up!

IMAGINATION

Went for a seminar earlier. Got DRAGGED by my cousin. Didn't know what it was all about till i actually reached he place. Wasn't really looking forward to it. Thought it was gonna be some same old boring talk just like those I've been to before.

So, we reached the place just in time before the talk started. Settled down. Then a guy who was the talk facilitator i guess, started introducing us about what we are going to expect later on and what the talk is about. It was actually about IMAGINATION. We were were told to stand up. So we did. And guess what? All of us had to sing this song called ' I had a dream'. I find it ridiculous la...Then the facilitator said 'Please be STANDED up for a little while longer'. I was bursting with laughter. Not out loud la...It would be inappropriate if i were to do that. We were told to say ' I AM HAPPY! I AM HEALTHY! I AM WEALTHY! ', with full of enthusiasm. The facilitator was so freaking enthusiastic but the audience wasn't. So he said that we will not sit until he hears our enthusiasm. Therefore with sarcastic enthusiasm, i said ' I AM HAPPY! I AM HEALTHY! I AM WEALTHY!'. Ridiculous? Yeah, i agree.

The talk lasted like from 7pm to 10pm. It wasn't just all talk. We were involved in some hands on activities too. Like how to make a BIG loop with an A4 paper..blah blah blah..All that supposedly related to one's IMAGINATION. There were 2 speakers one Chinese Malaysian lady the other was an old Thai man who apparently is a Physicist if I'm not wrong. The whole talk about IMAGINATION wasn't really boring la..We were given pencils and pens and papers, so i did a lot of scribblings to entertain myself during the boring parts.

My cousin was sitting next to this man whom i find a little weird. This is why. We were scribbling notes n stuff on the paper and that man kept looking at our paper and he was scribbling away on his paper after looking at ours. COPYCAT! I was like, Relax la. Not as if we're having lecture or anything like that. And besides that he kept asking us questions during the activity sessions. Questions like ' How to cut?' , ' Then do what?' blah blah blah.... My cousin being a kind soul, helped him out. Thank god i wasn't sitting next to him. I would be annoyed.

Then there was this old Malay makcik whom i spoke to during the break. She went on and on about the fact that her children, grandchildren and friends didn't want to accompany her to the seminar la, about her not wanting to babysit her grandchildren because she said that she wants to pursue her interest which she couldn't before as she was busy raising her own children.........She said a lot of other things also but i just couldn't get what she was trying to say.

By the way one of the event organizer went up to me and asked me how did i find out about the talk and he asked 'Are you from Berita Harian?' Then i answered, 'No my cousin dragged me here'. Then i gave him a wide smile.

Overall, i thought that it wasn't such a bad talk after all. I was even inspired to start reading books now. Not all those fiction books la. I'm inspired to read self help books. But i think this feeling isn't going to last long. According to a Malay proverb " Hangat-hangat tahi ayam".

KNOWLEDGE VS IMAGINATION

Think about it.

Evaluate me

Call me if you wish to evaluate me.

Cut the Crap!

Cut the crap and be HONEST!

I can't.

Instead of answering the question, i BEAT ABOUT THE BUSH.

Sometimes the truth hurts.

That's why!

Is it wrong if your intention is only not to hurt the other person?

I have absolutely NO idea why

Why is it a super common thing for people to replace the 'V' of a word with a 'W' when they pronounce the word?

For instance,

Wapour

inWite

Wehicle

Wegetable

.....and many more

try creating some on your own....Have Fun!

I find it amusing, Really.

Found Yours?

Ever wondered what your Life's calling is?

i do.

Everyone exist for a specific purpose.

Only time will tell.

My Obsession

The one thing that will never be crossed off my MOST WANTED list.

Lingerie!

For as long as i am a women, i will never get over my lingerie obsession.

PS: Girlfriends, if u ever were to find any difficulties finding a gift for me, Lingerie would be the purrfect gift. And one that i will definitely love too.

So in the end, no stress for you and all smiles for me.

Hehe....

And they lived happily ever after...

Finally finished watching the whole 8 seasons of charmed a while ago.

And the best part is that they all lived happily ever after...

If there's one thing I've learnt after spending so much time watching CHARMED besides witchcrafts and all things magical, is that LOVE is a big deal.

When there's life, there's love.

The wonderful thing that motivates people to live their individual lives every single day.

Be it love being shared by family and family, a man and a women, a friend and a friend, love shared by lovers, ultimately it is shared by one individual and another individual no matter who they are and where they come from.

Sometimes we run away from love.

Sometimes we try so hard to find love.

Sometimes we try even harder not lose it.

And when we do, it's usually hard to love again.

Sometimes we get hurt by love and it keeps us from moving on.

Sometimes we just have to know that when one door closes, another one opens.

Sometimes we even take for granted the ones who continues to love us even at the expense of getting hurt by the very ones they love...

Cherish the ones you love while they are still by your side.

Say " i love you" when they least expect that coming from you.

Hug them.

Kiss their forehead.

Make them happy.

Give them a reason to smile even for just a second.

Let them know that u really do love them if that's the least you can do.

Love and u will be loved.

My Psycho Babble

I am having a freakin headache rite now.
I am having this ENORMOUS/huge/gigantic craving for bubble tea.
I am bloody irritated by the loud disgusting music constantly played by the CD shop opposite my house.
I am thinking of the fact tt my bf just added a girl on friendster.
I am considering whether to fast tomorrow OR not.
Calamansi juice hurts my throat.
If only i know whether my grandfather thinks of me.
My brother is finally going down to get bubble tea for me.
Mom wants the best for me but i keep going against her.
Dad is a workaholic.
I've not been watching TV.
i don't want my children to be ten times worst then what i already am.
I am aware that it is not going to be easy for me and him.
I'm too short.
But that doesn't really bother me.
What bothers me is that i am still having a freaking headache.

These are some of the random things that run in my mind when I'm not talking.
Don't mind me...I'm just psycho babbling.

Only a fool would miss it

OH WELL......

This blog was supposed to be personal.

Late Bloomer

My first post
I never actually believed in blogging.
Not till recently i guess.
It's kind of late for me to start blogging at this point of time in my opinion.
But oh well...it's better late than never.Right?
Maybe ive been containing so many things inside like issues, feelings, frustrations, things that i really wanna let out but just can't seem to get out kinda things but now i found just THE perfect outlet where i can just say whatever i like and whatever i think without having to worry so much about how difficult it is to get the message across when i dealing with people.
You see...the problem is that i usually don't get to say things the way i want it and the way it's supposed to sound as i have this problem....
It's called the putting-the-right-words-into-a-sentence problem.
Which by the way makes me so frustrated that i will end up not getting my point across.
And I AM SO SICK OF THAT.
Phew! At least i feel a little better now. _smiles_

.raini is done saying what she has to say.