When will the rainbow appear?Tell me.

I am still emotionally disturbed.

I always make up excuses for you just to make it seem that there must be possible reasonable explanations to why you did what you did...

To mend my own semi shattered heart.

Am i being too nice, too forgiving, too quite, too scared?

I pray that God will watch over you wherever you are.

[Any idea what all this means?]

Masking My Inner Emotions

shitty.shittier.shittiest!

Damn!i hate it when i hate you.

Is it the mood swing or is it just me?

It suddenly feels weird.

I feel a little bit off for the past few days.

I feel emotionally drained too, somehow.

What's happening?

It feels like I'm giving out negative energy or something.

So is it the unexpected mood swing or is it just me?

Or maybe that particular something is bothering me so much till it affects my emotional balance.

I really think so.

Oh GOD.

I'm in desperate need of your help.

I could shatter into tiny bits and pieces this very moment under emotional pressure, if it is not YOU who continues to give me strength.

Or maybe the hormone imbalance in my body is responsible for this?

Or maybe...It could be both...

Raini is NOT in good emotional shape

I am freaking tired

This whole week was packed with all sorts of things physical and emotional.

School, as usual was tiring.

Jln raye last Friday was physically tiring.

My heels almost killed me.

Thank GOD fendi was super kind to save me from dying.

Then comes the emotional roller coaster which lasted very long and still is.

Arwah Cik Noh's tahlil.

The ?th tahlil i attended in the past month.

The sudden jalan raye at woodlands and marsiling.

And finally, i just completed my MOL topic 1&2.

AND school tomorrow...

Ohh...I'm so not looking forward for school tmw.

Fucking tired.

GoodNightPeople!

SweetDreams.

I hope mine would be the sweetest one i ever had.

God Help Me...

I've been thinking a lot.
Yet I still insist on forgiving the repetition.
So GOD please help me....
Find my way out.

For once please don't let me learn it the hard way.

Please...

Because i know it would hurt like hell.

-Raini

Yay! Jalan raye!!!!

Finally a complete reunion...

More pics on the way

What a week! Updates people!

THIS was what happened......

Fishy Fishy

ALL 3 fishes died!

S.A.D

I'm so sorry fishy fishy.I didn't mean to let you die.I guess i just don't understand you well to be able to provide you with a decent bowl to live in.May you rest in peace.

2nd Week of School

Tired la....

I still am very very afraid of Maths.

I am in the same class, even worst, same CATS GROUP with the person who can never contribute much besides ridiculous ideas and endless jokes.WAI KIT!!!!!

God Please Save ME!

My honey bastard XYZ lost her wallet with 150 bucks and hp.

I just hope the person who found it would do the right thing.

Or if not at least i hope XYZ would learn her lesson.

Jere is very very nice to me up to the point that my friends think of it as something else.

But i just think that he's JUST BEING NICE.

I wouldn't deny though that is the most and only "eligible bachelor" in class.

Heeheehee.

Dr Eddie Ong Hon!!!!

Reaction of a typical teenage girl would be....

"HE'S SO HOT RIGHT!!!"

Whether or not i'm your typical teenage girl is up to you to decide...

Heeheehee.

YAY! I finally wore black stockings to school this week.

I always feel excited if i dress up.

Heeheehee.

Unfortunately, the stockings didn't survive the whole day.

Then from looking funky with it, i looked normal without it.

Baby I love you.

Happy Anniversary!

Effective at 12am 25/10/07.

I'm done!

So far...This was what happened...

Bad start to 2nd day of school!

My darling Fishy fishy fishy!

Love,

Raini

Updates-15 Oct 07

Back to School

My first day of school today.New semester, new resolutions, new me...haha...No lah! I am still the same old Raini.Anyway, i was 10 mins late for my first lecture today.There i told you i am still the same old Raini who doesn't fail to be late for classes.Met most of my same old friends for the first time today after 7 weeks of break.Jeremiah still calls me with the same tone he uses to call me each and every time he calls out my name.Wai Kit is as crazy as the last time i saw him.Got to see my Honey Bastard and hang out with the Damn Bee and Sunailan...Did you know that i was Quite nice to her today?We didn't have to go through that awkward silence in the train when heading home today because i initiated a long long long conversation and it went pretty well.I guess it is probably because we haven't seen each other for quite some time now that's why there's so much to say.I wonder if it would get back to the usual awkward silence after a while...Oh, by the way, i had Math lecture today for the first time. I had bad butterflies in my tummy the whole time while the teacher was teaching sia!Now i really really know how bad my phobia of Math is.It is that bad.Lessons and practical today still went on despite today being the first day of school!Crap!I wasn't ready...

FOX

Yay!!!!! Went to fox before going home today.Bought the skirt i really really really wanted for a very very very long time plus a tube top too!I'm so excited!

On top of that, me and my girlfriends are going shopping tomorrow! YEAH!

My first pet

Met my mom at the pet shop and we bought everything from scratch.From the bowl, to the marbles to the air pump to the water conditioner blah blah blah....Assembled everything and now my 3 goldfishes are in the bowl!

Yay! I love my goldfishes...I hope it would live long enough at least finish up one bottle of fish food. I'm now trying to give them names... Suggestions people!

I feel so tired!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

I'm having mixed feelings this very moment.
I'm tired and I'm aching all over and nothing seems to be done.

SelamatMenyambutLebaran!

What a day!

Shampoo and Cut

Went to Kimage earlier today to have a haircut.It turns out that there is not much difference before i went for the cut and after the cut.The only difference is that it is a little shorter, my fringe is a little shorter, my hair is thinner and the hairdresser said that she cut my hair so it form a U shape at the back but i didn't really notice that much different.THAT is why right now i still feel dissatisfied with my hairstyle after the cut.You see the thing is that i am not much of a risk taker and not much of a daring person...I'm more of a safe person which makes me personally think that I am freaking boring.Starting from today onwards, I, Nurraini Bte Salim, WILL take risks to transform my current life into a not-so-boring life.Therefore, I, Nurraini Bte Salim, will head back to the salon tomorrow and get my fringe chopped off into CLEOPATRA BANGS! I WILL!

I said i need changes and now i won't hold back any longer.

Out with my girlfriends

I went to buke with some of my GFs at Simpang Bedok.It felt incomplete.It didn't felt like it was supposed to feel.Again, I wasn't satisfied with our get together session this time. Honestly it was disappointing.Really disappointing.We happen to bump into Shida Taharina and Ian and their gang and we end up eating side by side.Ct had to go off soon after that and it was me and Nor just the two of us wondering around TM and CS.So, with nothing much to do, we went to the 4th floor of TM to visit my 7 months pregnant colleague at Sewenty-Sewenth Street(77th Street).Then, we went to the arcade and made lotsa noise.That, i think was the highlight of the evening.

The End.

GoodNightEverybody!

A pet?!

Goldfish

My mom suddenly told us that she wanted to keep goldfishes in a bowl.

My initial reaction was 'IS SHE SERIOUS?!'...

YAY!!! I'm gonna have fishes swimming in my dining room!!!

But i thing it's going to be very leceh to set up all the things and keep the fishes alive.

I hope it wouldn't stink the whole house.

I'm so excited!

;P

Today

Updates

Tuan Puteri

I was doing my daily grocery shopping earlier today.And guess who i saw? My 'friend' back in primary school. The reason why there's an apostrophe is because we never really talked much to each other before back in those days.Plus we were in different classes from Primary 1 till Primary 6.All i knew that she was my friend's friend.Maybe...just maybe we were in the same mother tongue class before but i really don't remember.The only thing we said to each other back then was HI and BYE!Anyway, this girl lives pretty near me i suppose because i always and i mean ALWAYS bump into her around my area.And this girl will always approach me when she sees me and call me NOT by my name but by TUAN PUTERI which means Princess...and she does that ALL THE TIME.

Have you read it?

I wrote a post yesterday which was meant specifically for somebody only because i didn't have the guts to say it verbally to that particular somebody.I suppose that somebody haven't read it yet cos I'm not seeing any signs from the person that he actually read it already.Or maybe that person is trying to keep it a secret...I'm not saying that i have to know that he have read it or not, i just want to know that he knows and i want him to get the message irregardless of whether he tells me or not coz i really DO NOT have the guts to tell him!

Most Probably

Since I am most probably going to buke out with my friends this Thursday, i was thinking of going for a haircut before meeting up with them.Furthermore, i have this voucher from Kimage i got from Women's Day Out 2007 so i was thinking of not wasting it away.Plus, it is directly opposite my place...So it would be convenient baby! I can't stand my hair any longer!!!!! See how frustrated i am...

AND BY THE WAY...

I was asleep yesterday night and my XYZ Honey Bastard called me at 12plus am...So i answered her call and told me a GoodNight Joke before i head back to LaLa Land.The joke was about a man with a very very long penis...

GoodNightEverybody!

I've made up my mind!

I am going for a haircut!

She is sick of her current hairstyle

No Thinking Required

Kiss me, out of the bearded barley

Lightly, beside the green, green grass

Swing, swing, swing the spinning step

You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress

Kiss me down by the broken tree house

Swing me upon its hanging tire

Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat

We’ll take the trail marked on your father’s map

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight

Lead me out on the moonlit floor

Lift your open hand

Strike up the band and make the fireflies

Dance silver moon’s sparkling,

So kiss me

-Kiss Me-

Updates

Finally

Went to buke with my BF yesterday.Geylang is so not my kind of place.It was stuffy, freaking hot, freaking crowded and not my kind of place although it is THE one-stop place to be if u wanna shop for HARI RAYA stuff.We ended up somewhere else in the end.But i totally enjoyed it! ;P

Hari Raya Prep

Honestly, i don't feel like I've prepared anything for this coming Raya. All I have right now is not sewed FABRIC which is supposed to be my baju raye.It is green by the way.As for my raye shoe, i haven't really gotten a new pair to suit my baju raye yet.Still considering whether to get myself a new pair because my BF said that if i buy another pair of shoe, we will end up eating cornflakes and staying at home every Saturday which I REALLY REALLY DON'T think i want. But still considering though.I could still buy and keep it a secret rite?hehehe...naughty naughty Raini...Nah! I wouldn't do that!

Get-Together-Session

I don' know what to say about this...I have been waiting for the day when all of US can buke together but it seems like forever waiting for the day to come.So i really hope that we could all buke together before Ramadan ends and Raye comes...Raini is hoping that next Thursday we could all finally meet. If we don't then i guess we could only plan ahead but ultimately GOD decides.Ct please tell me you can make it. Nor please tell me you can make it. Joanna i know you most probably can make it.Suzana and Aisyah it would be a miracle if you two can make it.Anyway, Good Luck and all the best to you two for your Promos. I miss those times when we will shake hands saying things like 'Good Luck' or 'All The Best' or 'Just one more paper and we can ENJOY!', before any tests or exams during Secondary School.And the last time i remember us doing that was when we sat for our 'O' Levels last year. I miss you guys.

To Him

Sayang I'm so sorry if things don't go as you wish it would go this raye or whenever,as a matter of fact,due to constrictions/restrictions/rules/regulations i have with parents like mine .And I'm sorry if i couldn't provide you with the kind of lifestyle you used to have and the kind of lifestyle you wish you had which happens to be the kind of lifestyle you like.But one thing though that I'm very sure of is that i love you.i do. I've been wanting to tell you this since God-knows-when but didn't really have the guts to do so.So i hope that if u happen to read my blog this moment, it would save me the courage i have to build just to tell you this.
Wah...i feel so malu now.on the brighter side, at least i finally got it off my chest. :)

Disappointing Eyelash

Remember i went for an eyelash perming session not too long ago?Well, in the first place it didn't turn out as curled as i expected and it only looks really nice if i applied mascara on.But unfortunately now it is completely back to square one.NO pretty curled eyelash anymore. sad.

Honey Bastard

Haven't seen them for almost a month now. I miss you honey bastard! Remember what we planned for when school reopens ya!


To All

I wish to seek forgiveness in this Holy month from those whom I've ever hurt/offended/ treated badly/ talked bad behind etc. be it intentional or purely unintentional. Thank you.May God bless you.

GoodNightEveryone!

I can COOK!

Can You Believe It?

Nurraini Bte Salim can now cook with little or zero help from her lovely mama.
Over the past few weeks I've been helping my mom out A LOT with cooking.
And right now I am proud to announce that Nurraini Bte Salim can survive being thrown into any kitchen and cook wonderfully.
I'm exaggerating la.
But it is safe to say that she has mastered the art of cooking at least one decent DISH!
Now ready to embrace the role of a Housewife.

Anybody interested?

Application is now open till SHE finds THE perfect one.

Nah! Just kidding...

Me embracing the role of a housewife?
I'm not even done with my other roles right now and embracing the role of a housewife is the least of my concerns.

GoodNightEverybody!

By The Way...

I still feel restricted when i blog.

Get together sessions...

They are having their Promos I suppose.
So i guess that they might not be able to buke with the rest of US.
I'm still going to call them up though.
BUT i have a feeling that they might not be able to make it or maybe might not even want to make it.
I wonder when we will all be able to have a complete GET TOGETHER SESSION without missing persons.
I wonder if that is even POSSIBLE these days.
I totally understand that most of us are busy with our own personal lives but have you forgotten US?
Anyway, less than 2 weeks left of Ramadan.
I don't know if it is even possible for get together session.

But i PRAY it would be.

It would an opportunity for all of us to seek forgiveness for the things bad we did.

And enjoy one another's company....

Like we USED to........

Still Not Giving In

I am still acting cold towards my brother even though he's trying to be nice to me.

Like talking to me and things like that.

OMG! I know i shouldn't keep acting cold towards him...

BUT part of me keeps telling myself that i am STILL mad at him...

and i should still BE mad...

Am I Overreacting?

Maybe.

But I'm still mad.

Or at least my brain tells me that i am.

What my heart tells me is the total opposite though.

-Air dicincang tidak akan putus-

Yay!

School Re-Opens in about 2 weeks time...

I'm dying to go back to school because I'm literally rotting and decaying this very moment.

I know that it's gonna be back to boring lectures, tutorials and other school shit.

But i think its WAY better than staying at home.

I really don't know how things are gonna be like when school re-opens though.

The Hari Raya celebrations is still going on you know.

I still want to collect duit raye.

Do it when your still young or else people will think that you ' Tak Tau Malu!'

And i still want to parade the whole Singapore with my Baju Raye and Heels.

Alah...See what happens when the time comes la...

Back to my 'Back to School' Babble...

I so rindu the BALLS in canteen 1.

So excited to see my friends in school.

So excited to worry every night about wear the next morning.

The train rides...

The morning rush...

The bubble tea before, during and after school...

The bus rides...

The unexpected incidences...

My Stalker...wonder if he still recognises me...hehehe

and the babble goes on and on and on.....

AND ONE MORE THING!

REMEMBER OUR SHOPPING SPREE!

Oh ya!

I forgot to babble about my new time table.

Do you know that every Thursday i have classes only from 3pm to 5pm?

Lagi baik tak payah gi skola seh!

And on Friday i have to reach school at 8 am only to go home at 12pm.

Buat penat bangun pagi pagi bute!

I'm sure I'll be late for most 8 or 9 or 10am lessons...

Conferm!

Fortunately, school ends mostly at 5pm or earlier...

SADLY, Mr Eddie Ong is not going to be my Physiology lecturer.

THAT! Is very very sad...

I was so looking forward to be in his class you know!

OH Well....

What Can I Do?

And another sad thing...

I have to face my greatest fear next semester...

MATHEMATICS!!!!

Anyway, what better way to overcome that fear than FACING it.

All In all, I'm really excited to see what lies ahead of me.

My Future.

My Life.

Segala Yang Hidup Pasti Akan Mati

My father's surrogate mother passed away earlier today.

So, technically, My Grandmother passed away.

I'm only left with one living and breathing Grandmother now.

-Innalillah wa inna lillahi roji'un-

Freaking Pissed

I just had a fight with my brother a while ago when my whole family were having dinner in the kitchen...He was just so 'kurangajar nak mampos' and i couldn't stand it so i started verbal arguments with him...after a while he gets more 'kurangajar' up till the point when i couldn't stand it anymore my hand just flew across the table and hit him...And it got worst....i don't think i want to elaborate on that...

My mom was there trying to stop us but we didn't...
She wanted to take the rotan but I'm sure it wasn't for me but for my brother fortunately she didn't.If she had, it would certainly be uglier...
I'm so sorry mama.

I did that because i can't bare hearing him talk to you like that.

I'm Really Sorry Mama.

He did apologise though before he went out.But that's only because my mom told him to.

I'm not ready for apologies.

Fill in the blank

I am _______ _____!

Raini