Trying something new

I am getting myself a pair of FAKE LASHES!

I Was Lost...Crossed Lines I Shouldn't Have Crossed

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA!

Mama, on your birthday,

I want to wish you happiness and good health

and not forgetting panjang umur too.

May Allah bless you with all that and more.

I know I haven't been the perfect little girl you raised me up to be,

it doesn't mean that you've failed yourself or anybody at all.

Because one thing I'm sure of is that

I've always loved you.

I'm sorry for being a pain in the ass all the time, everytime.

I guess it's the generation gap and our different views and perspecives and all that crap.

I'm sorry for not listening to you.

For always hurting you.

I'm sorry.

I know sorry is merely a word.

And that you would rather see me change rather than hearing a gazillion sorrys frm me.

But again, I'm sorry i can't promise you that.

I'm sorry for being selfish.

I'm sorry.

That's why I pray never stop praying to GOD to give you strength.

I love you.

More than I love anybody else in this world.

You may not believe me,

and I don't blame you for that.

I wish I could prove that to you one day before it's too late.

Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SUPER DUPER MAMA!

i pray for you strength

What a long long night.

First and foremost, I, Nurraini Bte Salim,

would like to make an apology to MARY Jan

and especially TABLA HO.

Tabla Ho I am truly sorry for contributing

to one of your 2 HUGE blows the other day.

Once again I'm sorry.



Anyway, I was up till quite late last nite,

doing pretty much a lot of different things.

I watched a Jap movie that Tabla Ho talked about.

It's called THE MIDNIGHT SUN.

You tube it if you want to watch it.

I think I'm having serious earworms

from listening to the soundtract of the movie.

I really liked it tho.



From watching The Midnight Sun on you tube,

I started YOU TUBING.

And you know, ONCE you start. you can't stop.

Btw, side tracking for a while,

while I'm bloggine this very second,

the smell of smth which smells very similar to SHIT

is wafting through the air.

KNS I want to puke already sia!

Anyway, as I was saying...

I started you tubing, then somehow I decided to

watch videos on make up application...

You know, how they make those nice highly dramatic eye make up.

And the best thing is that the SHOW you STEP BY STEP.

It looks easy but I bet once you start trying it on your own,

it'll be super duper difficult, esp the blending and toning part.

And so I watched tonnes and tonnes of those kinds of vids.



Then I got tired so I switched off my lappie and went to my room.

I thought I was gg to sleep but then

I was so inspired bu all those vids that I decided to try it myself.

So there I was applying make up alone in the room at 3 am.

Applying make up alone is not enough so i did some cam whoring

to kinda see the results of my make up application skills in pictures.



So, its all been done

but suddenly I saw my oil pastels and my drawing block.

Instantaneously I felt like drawing.

SO I DID.



All those things in the middle of the night.

BOREDOM!



Ouh...DEBBIE CHUA sent me some AVATARS.

and i'm gonna use them here.

Thanks gurl.

One quarter a century already!

the young and the old

Bend and SNAP!

Mos-qui-toes
Sweet dreams world
Starlight starbright
Jere went RED after the Bacardi
Sending Waikit off
Half of Bee's body is finally out!
Re-born
The power of three will set us free.
Unfinished Bridge
Weird concoction taste BAD!

Bee finally got a chance to flaunt her new chest.
Just plain fun in the sand
Boobs in the making
Don't touch ME!
Dig in!

Jere the HANTU
SMILE!Exams are OVER!
What in the world do you think you're doing?!
Bee feeling the pressure

We are on our way.
Impulsive people
looking good!
fitting my ass into a little hole they dug.
Having fun at the beach at sun down

It's over and done.

The bloody exams are finally over!
It scares me thinking of the moment
When i'll be sitting in fornt of my lappie on the result day
With my heart beating so fast and the next thing i know...
I'm looking straight at my results.
What happens after that only time will tell.
God Please Help Me.

As for now, I shall think of what i'm going to do
With 7 weeks of my life before school re opens.
GET A FREAKING JOB!
Should I contact ZEUS?
Should I continue working at 77th Street
Working my ass off like mad
For more than 12 hrs a day getting paid at only 1.1K per month?
Will he agree to my terms?
Will I agree to HIS terms?
On top of that, do you know that THIS is a very difficult dicision for me
Because I AM AFRAID THAT IF I SPEND SO MUCH TIME WORKING HE MIGHT FIND OTHER PEOPLE TO KEEP HIM COMPANY!
I don't want history to repeat itself.
I KNOW that this is the most ridiculous reason ever
But the fact is...
That is actually the reason why I'm still decising.
RIDICULOUS.RIDICULOUS.RIDICULOUS.RIDICULOUS!
I kept telling myself that, but i can't help it.
Poor litte Miss Raini.
Anyway, why is it so hard to find a job?
Help me get a job please someone.

Fizah's temporarily giving me her TRUE YOGA membership card!
FOR FREE!
Yay!At least if I really can't find anything to do
I can join some yoga classes or whatever classes they offer there.
Thanks gurl!

I can't believe I actually watched a MOVIE with tabla a day before CHEM PAPER!
The paper I FEAR MOST.

me.tabla.mary.sindi.junyu.bee.waikit.jere
Crazy time at SENTOSA
Straight after our last paper.
The thought of it makes me SMILE.
I love them, really.
I'll post photos in my next post.
Sorry Mama I didn't turn out the way you wanted me to be.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY CT!
Go out there and have fun doing crazy things ya!
Don't forget to drag me along on a crazy mission once in a while.
By the way, All the best for your upcoming exams.

To be honest, I've been thinking A LOT lately.
Thinking about all the people relationships in my life.
I really wished I knew what to do.

See you in my next post.

As shitty as it is...

I believe you don't view my blog anymore.
But let me tell you something you don't know
Or maybe you know but choose not to believe.
Maybe that's why you stopped viewing.
Just maybe.I don't know.You tellme.
This blog is initially made just for you.
Not that it is made FOR you la
But most of the things in this blog is reffering to you
Or even MENT for you to SEE.
Or even read between the lines
So that you would know how I feel about things and what I want.

.I HOPE YOU SEE THIS.

My Lollypop

You are my baby love.

i remember like it was yesterday

first kiss and i knew you changed the game

Tweezer Happy!

Cupcake designed by the talented raini.

There's more!
Bee with the HANTU!
the SO NOT SCARY hantu

Raini's talented hands.

It does a lot of things...if you know what I mean ;P
Come here Tabla let Raini KISS you!
OMG!no comments.
the HOT jumper
"ARE YOU TOKING ABOUT ME?!"

picturePERFECT
VainPOTS
Retarded dog.
Let's COMPARE fingers!!!

hotPINK!!

Love Day 08

HOTpink

Successful DIY manicure.

Satisfied!

small small world

Thank you you know who

Just plain bored

something i did out of boredom

Will I ever be your special someone?

I'll have to start mugging soon.

I surrender

Sometimes shattered, never open
Nothing matters when you're broken
That was me, whenever I was with you
Always ending, always over
Back and forth, up and down, like a roller coaster
I am breaking that habit today

i'm going crazy.

For something im not even sure of.

In the arms of the angel

Went to visit my nenek earlier.
Spent the whole day there.
Food, food and more food.
Eat, eat and keep eating.
I think I've gone past my 4.1L stomach capacity.
I love you nenek.
There was a point of time i thought that you hated me.
I hope you don't.

You Tubing and watching online movies.
A superb way to kill time.
Dane Cook. Try You Tubing that.
I think he's hot.

On the way home from nenek's hse,
we terserempak with Raudah's family.
Dad and mom spoke to her parents.
And I, I had to talk to her la.
I didn't really know how to react when i saw her.
It had been ages since i last saw her.
The first thing she did was she walked towards me with her arms open.
What was i supposed to do?
I hugged her back.
We had this ridiculous history back then.
RIDICULOUS.
It was pretty awkward.Honestly.

I'm home now.
It just sux having to rot at home when your bf is out and about with his friends.
I absolutely know that i can't expect him to act like he's 18 because he's not.
But i really think that i crave for the kind of attention an 18 year old bf would give to his gf.
I just hope you know what i mean.
I NEED MORE ATTENTION FROM YOU!

Spend all your time waiting

For that second chance

For a break that would make it ok

There's always some reason

To feel not good enough

And it's hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction

Oh beautiful release

Memory seep from my veins

Let me be empty and, oh, weightless

And maybe I'll find some peace tonight

CNY

Tabla Ho is off enjoying her well deserved CNY holiday in M'sia.
Mary Jan will be off to M'sia too.
What am I going to do?
Who's going to be my MSN buddy?
What am i going to do till SUNDAY?

Sat for Microbio pract today.
The paper started at 8.30am.
I reached the damn school at 7.50 am.
Luckily for me, I wasn't the only one who was early.
Saw Jeremiah sitting alone so I went over and sat with him.
We were itting outside the wrong LT till mins before the paper starts.
God Bless Tabla Ho.

Surprisingly, BF came to school to search for me.
I never thought in a million years that he would ever do that.
I'm happy that he did tho.
Got a good look at him and his bike Debbie Chua?

BF and I went to West mall to have Mc Breakfast.
However, when we reached WM, we couldn't find any Mc Donalds there.
So, we end up eating breakfast at BK.
I didn't like it.
He carried my coral coloured vintage sling the whole time.
Didn't thought he would do that too.
He looked so cuteee.

Went to my place and watched Iron Ladies 2.
He left right after to reach home in time for dinner with his family.
My PARANOIA is back!
It's getting worse.
Silly girl?

Bleeding like mad.
On the bed for 5 whole hours.
My endometrium is disintegrating.
FSH level rising.
Can I just rip my whole damn uterus, squeeze out everything and shove it back in?
It'll save me all the trouble and pain.

Happy Chinese New Year World.

Friendster

So much for your 'I don't add people I don't know on friendster...They are all my friends.'!

-I'll probably tell you this tonight.

If you happen to read, BETTER STILL.-

I will continue blogging on Wednesday.

Exam essentials

My 'She can kill with her smile' pencil case.
It's pathetic content.

I need a/an/lots and lots of:

1)Plastic ruler

2)Eraser
3)Coloured pens for motivation to make notes (like Tabla's Coloured pens collection)

4)Highlighters to highlight chunks and chunks of 'IMPT' points

5)Stapler with stapler bullets

6)Liquid paper

7)'Post it' sticky page marker

8)Decent pencils

9)Decent pens (nt those I stole from hotels)

I'm sorry friends who I kept borrowing stationeries from.

You know whow you are.

Thank you.

Anybody willing to generously donate those above mentioned things?

Happy Happy Dim Sum!

Happy Birthday to you!
Love that card!Girly Girly.
Mary.Mama.Bee.Tabla.Kitty

WaiKit.Jere.Raini.Kitty.Mary
1M05

Dear Kitty,

Happy 18th Birthday!

XOXO