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I HATE THAT I DON'T HATE YOU

That's how much I love you

That's how much I need you

And I can’t stand you
Must everything you do
Make me wanna smile?
Can I not like it for awhile?

But you won’t let me
You upset me boy then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did

But I hate it
You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long, that’s wrong

But I hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so..

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that
I Love you beyond the reason why

And it just ain’t right
One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me

never been said better

TO YOU

AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN! DEAR YOU, I HAVE LOST COUNT ON HOW MANY TIMES SHIT LIKE THIS HAPPENS!I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL NOW.I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I SHOULD JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS AFTER SEEING WHAT I SAW OR TALK TO YOU AND HOPE THAT YOU WOULD COME UP WITH SOMETHING NICE TO SAY TO CONVINCE ME THAT IT IS NOT WHAT IT SEEMS LIKE.I'M SO SICK OF THIS YOU KNOW! I KNOW YOU KNOW THAT I'LL NOT COME YELLING AT YOU ASKING FOR EXPLAINATION EVEN THOUGH SOMETIMES I THINK I SHOULD DO THAT, AFTER SO MANY TIMES YOU HAD TO PUT ME THORUGH THIS. BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU CAN TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME. JUST IN CASE YOU FORGET, LET ME REMIND YOU THAT I MAY NOT REACT AS VIOLENTLY AS MOST GIRLS WOULD BUT GUESS WHAT?! I FEEL AS SAD, AS ANGRY, AS DISAPPOINTED AS MOST NORMAL HUMAN BEINGS WOULD FEEL!YOU KNOW I WOULDN'T MAKE A BIG FUSS OUT OF SHIT LIKE THIS BECAUSE YOU KNOW I COULDN'T BEAR TO LOSE YOU.BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU SHOULD KEEP ON MAKING ME GO THROUGH SHIT LIKE THIS!I HAVE FEELINGS TOO YOU KNOW!I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL NOW.I ALWAYS WONDER WHY THINGS LIKE THIS ALWAYS HAVE TO HAPPEN JUST AS I'M BEGINNING TO THINK THAT THINGS ARE GETTING PERFECT.WHY?WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO DO THIS TO ME?I'M TIRED OF THIS.WHAT IS IT THAT YOU REALLY WANT?TELL ME COS I DON'T KNOW.

JUST ONE QUESTION....

WHY?

I NEED TO KNOW.

pasarMalam

Enjoy!

Retarded Donkey and Cacat Tiger @ The Pasar Malam

BORING!!!!!!

Yes.I finally got myself a job.

I am a TRAINEE Personal Assistant for a Financial Advisor.
I only work 2 days a week,
And 4 hours everytime I go to work.
Quite flexible, as a matter of fact it is very flexible,
In the sense that I can actually decide the time I start work.
The pay however is ok only lah...
It's quite low you may say but its
Definitely way better than wasting my life away
Doing nothing that benefits me besides
Stuffing myself with more junk food than ever
And piling on more and more fats on my already "babaty" freaking body.
WAYYYYYYYYYYY better!

But it's ALL THE WAY in FREAKING TOA PAYOH lar!
Luckily there's a direct bus from my house to the person's house.
And lucky meI got my CANDYinpink to entertain me.
I think I would have time to have a really quick nap too.
LOL. I'm just trying to think positive with all those negativity
I get from commiting myself into this job.

OK!Enough said about my new BORING job!
OH ya!I just realised that I've gotten used to typing with the missing letter 'E'
That I don't find it irritating anymore.
And I totally forgot that I was supposed to CALL UP the ACER guys to fix it.
If I EVER were tyo call them up,
HOW I WISHED THOSE ACER GUYS WERE HOT GUYS IN UNIFORMS.
LOL.I'm sure FARZ would drop dead if that EVER happens.
HOT GUYS IN UNIFORMS.

YUMMY!

Farz...You're such a sweetheart.
Thanks for those 'oleh-oleh' from BANGKOK!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!

And Joanna! Your FITO so cute la.
So sweet.
So obedient.
SO DAMN CUTE!

DAMMIT!I HAVE WORK AT 10AM TMW!
AT TOA PAYOH!

I miss u TABLA and MARY!
Come home soon.

Shisha Cam Whoring