No Regrets LARRR...

I won't lie to anybody, especially myself,
and say that I'm perfectly fine now.
Cos I'm still trying
to move on and get over it.
But I do not have any intentions of
forgetting the beautiful memories
I gained and shared with you,
cos at one point everything we did,
was exactly we wanted...

So, Cheers y'all!

you who once made me smile

And so I shall declare myself as
single and ready to mingle.
I'd be lying if i were to say that I didn't see this coming.
Cos I knew that it would,
the only question was when.
I chose to hope that the day wouldn't have to come
cos I was hoping that my first love would last.
But unfortunately, it didn't.
Maybe we lost the spark.
Maybe a third party.
Maybe to start off with,
we built our relationship on the wrong foundation
and its ought to collapse in just a matter of time.
Or maybe it's just not meant to be.
I don't know.
There are a thousand and one reasons to it.
You told me some...
Others you might deny
But all I know is that once upon a time,
I did put my heart and soul, body and mind into it.
But all that's left to it are just memories, pictures and stuff...
I don't hate you for what happened...
I just hated the fact that I tried my best to make it work,
while you just sat back and assume that it couldn't work.
Little did I see you fight for it,
maybe in the first place I wasn't any special or
maybe even wasn't at all worth it.
I didn't want it to end the way it did,
as a matter of fact, I didn't want it to even end.
25th was once a special day,
now all it is, is no more than an ordinary day.
I may seem clingy still,
but that's only because it happened all to fast.
And I may not turn into some crazy psychotic ex-girlfriend,
but trust me you, it hurts when I realise that
there's no more us to you and me.
So on this day,
I may have lost you,
but I've re-gained my independence as a woman.
I'm sensible enough to realise that it's not the end of the world,
I'm mature enough to realise that there's
other sweeter things that life itself has to offer.
And I'm definitely gonna stand back up,
move on and make the most out of the rest of my life.
Thank you for the life lessons that I wouldn't have
learnt if it wasn't for you.
And if it's not meant to be,
it's not meant to be.
It's true what they say...
"It's better to have love and lost, than never to have loved at all."
So there you go friends, visitors, people and the whole wide world,
My boyfriend and I broke up,
and all he is to me from today onwards
is nothing more than an EX-BOYFRIEND.
I could only wish you were still mine.
But don't worry...
I'll be fine.

Where did I go wrong?

For a moment there,
everything came rushing back into my head.

Who's gonna teach me how to drive?
Who's gonna go handphone hunting with me?
Who's gonna be the one to go sun tanning with me?
Who's gonna snuggle up with me in bed?
Who's gonna listen to me whine?
Who's gonna be the last one I text before I sleep?

But why did what just happened happen?
I can't deal with this.

Hold me close and say three words like you used to do.

I need you back.

Sampai kapan?

I don't know.

Get Hypnotized!

I've been yearning to watch movies
particularly Wall.E for quite some time now,
even before it was shown in the theatres
Unfortunately I don't have anyone to watch it with me.
It's either they've watched it already
or they don't want to watch to watch it at all.
Some people just don't know how to compromise.
Pretty sad actually if you ask me.
But what to do?
And oh yah...
I wanna watch 4BIA too.
And if nobody wants to watch it with me,
I'll just go by myself.

I've been up to something I never thought I would be doing lately.
I'll wake up every morning only to get hypnotized by the track.
Although waking up in the morning is by far the most hardest thing to do,
I've been committed to the plan for a full two weeks now.
And if I can do a week, I can do two weeks.
And if I can do two weeks, I can do four!
It's all for the better, I keep telling myself.
There are more advantages to this routine
than there are disadvantages.
So all I have to do now is to keep motivating myself.

Right now, this very moment,
I am very irritated with the, if I'm not wrong,
Lantern Festival Karaoke Competition just opposite my block.
It's been three days you know!
I bet you guys won't be able to take it too if you were here.
Fortunately for my whole block and others staying nearby
wouldn't have to suffer any longer cos there won't be any
Karaoke-ing tomorrow!
Thank God!

I'm gonna have to start helping mom with sewing already.
That's actually what I've been taught to do since I was young.
And that's something I will have to do every fasting month.
But the good thing is...
I get paid!
But let me tell you something,
it is unbelievably tedious and only patience and skill
will get things done.
Hohoho...My hands are so talented.
Lol!

And just like any other years,
I have no idea if I will even have a Baju Raya
in time for the celebration.
Oh well...
It's not such a big deal anymore
cos I'm too used to it.
So what happens, happens lah.

Big day tomorrow.
I'm so nervous.

The day Cinderella became Queen Bitch...

So yah... Sometimes I wish I could act a little childish
and throw a little tantrum without others thinking
of me as being utterly unreasonable and irrational.
So thanks to my reasonable and rational and very patient nature,
I wouldn't turn into Queen Bitch so soon.
But I will if I have to.

Paranormal Activity!

Neh neh neh neh neh!

I passed!!!