MY HEART SANK TO THE PIT OF MY STOMACH

It has been confirmed that I will be going to Taiwan.
I was praying that my dad would find it difficult to get air tickets
so that the whole trip would have to be cancelled.
BUT NO!!!!!
I will have to fly there soon.
Reluctantly.Again.
I'm not planning to tell BF about this until maybe a few days before I actually fly.
I'm not sure why either.
I want him to feel really sad that I will be away.
I want him to feel incomplete without me around.
I want him to miss me.
Real bad.

But will he?

I don't want to.

But I have to.